Far Away || S.M

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Kayla's POV

I was standing outside the arena not sure if I want to go inside and meet him. I've been out there for 5 minutes now wondering if I should enter or leave now. There was more time left till the concert begins but when Shawn bought the tickets he made sure to buy a VIP for me as well, so now I have the right to go to the Q&A and then meet him at the M&G.

No doubt, I'd love to use this right of mine not even thinking about leaving, if only yesterday haven't happened. Now I am not so sure what I want and what i'm gonna do.

After awhile I felt an arm on my shoulder and when I turned around to see who it is, I saw not other but his bodyguard.

"So you decided to come", he smiled.

"Yeah, though I still am not sure if I want to be here at all."

"Look, Shawn is really sorry that he didn't tell you earlier. The whole past week I was trying to convince him to meet you but he always declined. He said that he is afraid of your actions and that you might hate him after that, which already happened.", sly smile appeared on his lips.

"I don't hate him. But I am very upset. I flew half the world so we can meet and then what happened?! If I haven't entered that café I would have never find out that Ryan actually is Shawn.", I snapped.

"I know, but give the boy chance. Last night he won't stop talking about you and how sorry he was and that he should have told you earlier. I know he made a big mistake but give him a chance.", he pleaded.

I was about to come with some reply when a screaming girl interrupted our conversation.

"OH MY GOD! I CAN'T BELIEVE I AM ACTUALLY SEEING JAKE!", she screamed, "Thank you for keeping Shawn safe!", she hugged his build up body for a second then her gaze met me and pulled away "Sorry, am I interrupting something?"

"No, I was doing the same thing as you. Thanking him for keeping Shawn safe.", I smiled but inside I flinched. Not that I didn't want him safe or something, actually i didn't know what I was feeling right now.

"Just think about it.", he said to me before waving us goodbyes and disappearing somewhere.

"So..", the girl trailed off "I see you have VIP so what are you waiting for? Let's go!"

"I don't know.. I am not sure if I want to be here.."

"Bullshits! Of course you want! Everyone here want! That's why we are all here! Come on now!", she exclaimed, taking my hand in hers, while dragging me inside right to the room of the Q&A.

Well, she didn't leave me any chance of escape.

When we reached the room where the Q&A was held, we showed our passes and entered the room.

Inside there were about hundred people, mostly girls. Well, they were probably less people, but this was the most crowded room I have ever seen.

"Well, i am till here, your seat is in the front. So lucky!", I heard Trisha, who's name I finally learned, whisper,  then she waved at me saying "i will see you in the concert hall, our seats are next to each other!" , she added after taking a look at my ticket. She then took a sit in the back of the room, near the door we came in.

I looked to the front table where Shawn was supposed to sit just in few minutes, then at the seats in the front, where I was supposed to be, which weren't even a meter away from him, when suddenly an anxious feeling started to form in the pitch of my stomach.

Staying just in few inches away from him is going to be disaster. I won't be able to stay there. Not now. I really start to regret coming here.

After taking another glance of the seats in the front, an idea came to my mind and I started heading to where Trisha was sitting.

"Do you want to change seats with me", i asked her, giving her my best smile.

"What? No! This is a chance you can't–"

"Do you want it or not?", I asked again, and she just gave me a puzzled look.

Sighing, I turned to the other girls who were on the last row there  "Does anyone of you want to change seat with me here?", I repeated my question, this time louder so they can hear me, "Mine is in the most front row."

After these words of mine, there were few gasps heard and even someone muttered "She is crazy" which didn't even offended me because let's be honest, if it was me few months ago, I'd be thinking I am out of my mind as well.

I don't know how it happened all of them to be so kind and no one to wants to be in the front, but he was soon to be coming and if I didn't find some place where he won't be able to see me, I think I am gonna collapse just here, or run away from the door, which is definitely going to be a start for rumors.

I saw this girl who was sitting next to Trisha, and next to her there was this big plant. The perfect place to stay out of view.

She was very grateful when I told her to go to the front because she was struggling to keep sight of the door which Shawn soon will be entering. More than perfect.

When she finally left her seat I sit and long sigh left my lips. I was exhausted and I have just arrived.

The few minutes I have left before his entering, I took to appreciate the room we were and all the people here, mostly my newfound friend.

Trisha was very beautiful girl and I hate to say I may be a bit jealous of her. She had these big green eyes, the milk white skin with pink cheeks, puffy lips and freckles making her face shine. And her outfit including nothing more but casual jeans and one of the Shawn hoodies from the official merch. Also her long curly strawberry hair was fitting perfectly to her look. She really was very beautiful. No doubt she was perfect for Shawn's girlfriend.

All the chatting in the room came to a halt, then to piercing screams, when the door lock started moving and the door itself opened.

Jake entered accompanying Shawn who had ear to ear smile on his face.

He said hi to everyone than sat on the table, making everyone go silent.

His gaze was wandering over the first seats in the front and his smile faltered a little but not enough to be noticed from everyone.

"So.. How are you?", he asked still looking over at everyone. It was like he was searching for someone.

I tried to move as far away as possible but the wall didn't help me at all and my moves included just trying to push the plant in front of me, which wasn't happening because it was heavy and there was another person in every inch so every move was excluded. So having no way to escape but the door that was two meters away, I stayed quiet, hoping Shawn wouldn't notice me.

Much to my displeasure, when I looked up at him. his gaze met mine and his smile brightened.

Oh well.

"Do you have any questions?"

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Me and Miglena (the co-writer) have never been to a concert and have never experienced this so excuse us if this is not the way a concert with VIPs and Q&As and M&Gs goes.

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