ONE THOUSAND ONE HUNDRED AND FIFTEEN WORDS.
Blue's P.O.V
It's been two weeks since Harry confronted Liam and I haven't left the house, not necessarily because of Liam or anything about that situation, I just haven't needed to leave.
Zayn's still with me and checks on me every chance he can, as for Harry he texts me now and then but only to ask something. Zayn told me him and Harry had been hanging out but not in very public places, Zayn assumed Harry didn't want to be seen with him so he told Harry to stop pitying him and me. We havent heard from him since.
"Hey Blue, you okay in here?" Zayn asked walking in to my room, I was lying on my bed staring at the ceiling. I looked over to him and nodded, before looking back to the ceiling. I heard Zayn sighing before he ran over and jumped on me.
"Zayn! What the hell are you doing?" I screamed, he looked at me mischeviously before grabbing a pillow and hitting me not to hard with it. I yanked the one from under my head and pushed him off me before wacking his back with it.
"You're gonna get it Morisson." He exclaimed before putting me on my back and tickling my sides.
"No! Please s-stop! Zayn!" I screeched and laughed as he continued, eventually stopping and just looking at me with a smile on his face.
"What's that look for Z?"
"I'm just happy to see you smile Blue. Haven't seen it in a while."
I then realised I had the biggest smile on my face that my cheeks hurt, I hadn't had that feeling in a while now that Zayn brought it up.
"C'mon let's go get some food, my treat." Zayn explained smiling, before standing up and giving me a hand up off my bed.
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"What are you getting Blue?" Zayn asked looking up from his menu to me, I shrugged.
"There's a lot of good food here. Probably a one piece pack, what about you Z?" I asked, he gave me a look.
"What?"
"Get a two piece, stop holding back Blue."
"I'm not holding back, I just wouldn't be able to eat both pieces of chicken and chips, and a drink."
"You don't eat a drink darlin' get a two piece." he shook his head playfully, I rolled my eyes.
"I need to pee,"
"TMI, Blue."
I stood up from the table and headed to the bathroom, while I was in there I got a text from my dad, who was back. He asked if I needed anything from the shop to which I said no.
I washed my hands at the sink and looked into the mirror. I felt more content with myself and the way my life was going, that thought made me smile. I dried my hands and left the bathroom.
Zayn looked at me as I sat down with a slight smirk on his face and his brows furrowed. I looked at him confused.
"What?"
"You're smiling again, what the hell was in that bathroom?" Zayn asked, I laughed and shrugged.
"Nothing really, I'm just happy with the way everything's going at the moment, I didn't even know I was still smiling." I explained, to which he nodded his smirk fading to a gentle smile.
"What exactly do you mean by 'everything' Blue?" He asked, I thought back to how I felt in the bathroom.
"Just with life I guess, that sounds cheesy as shit, but like I don't know. I guess I just haven't felt as content as I do right now." I explained, Zayn nodded and then thought about what I said.
"I feel like ever since I tried to convince myself that I am happy, it kind of worked." I continued, Zayn looked confused.
"I wouldn't think that kind of thing would work, don't knock it till you try it I guess." Zayn stated with a smile, I nodded smiling back at him.
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I had ended up getting a two piece cause Zayn ordered while I was in the bathroom. I managed to eat it all but I haven't eaten that much in ages and I felt really unwell on the drive back home.
I had just entered the house when something came up very quickly, I ran to the closest bathroom and threw up, Zayn rushing behind me and holding my hair as I regurgitated up not only my lunch but my breakfast too.
"Blue, what the hell happened?" Zayn asked when I stopped vommiting as he rummaged through the draws to find a hair tie.
"The two piece was too much Z, I told you." I explained slightly irritated that he didn't listen to what I said, his face dropped as he gathered my hair into a bun.
"I'm, shoot, s-sorry Blue, I didn't mean f-for you to get sick." He stuttered, Zayn only stutters when he's anxious, I looked over to him to see him looking down and playing with the hem of his shirt. I immediately felt like shit for lashing out at him.
"Hey hey, don't be sorry Z. Why are you anxious?" I asked reaching out to him, he shakily took me into his arms. I furrowed my brows, why was he so nervy?
"My anxietys gotten worse Blue," I looked up to him with sad eyes. "I can't control it anymore, I get anxious sometimes for such small unnecessary reasons." He explained rocking me back and fourth in his arms.
"What was the reason just then?" I asked, he looked down at me sadly and unsure. "Tell me Z, you can tell me anything, remember?" I reminded him, he nodded.
"I know, it's just I don't want to anger you or anything. I just gotanxious that one day you'll leave me and go be friends with Harry and his friend, so when you got annoyed with me.. I just apologised as quickly as I could cause I thought you'd, well leave." Zayn explained hugging me tighter the more he talked about it, I felt myself tear up. Zayn always thought so low of himself.
"No, what? Z-Zayn I would never ever leave you, after all these years. Why would I even think about leaving y-you Z?" I began sobbing and so did he.
And for the rest of that afternoon we sat on the cold bathroom floor in eachothers embrace.
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mushy chapter
poor zaynie :(
been a wee second hasn't it
i'm sorry i haven't been writing, i've been struggling with this story and where it's going tbh
but i'll get back on that don't y'all worry
-beck.
