Demi's litlle warrior

Chapter 2- The inevitable

1 new message from Mum

I opened the message, to find something horrifying.

Hey princess, meet your dad and I at the hospital straight away. It's very important.

Love mum xx

I had already a bad feeling about this. What if something was wrong with Kate? My mind was racing with all of the bad things that could be.

I quickly grabbed my bag and jacket from my bedroom floor and dashed to the garage where my car was. My hands were to shaky to open the door the first time.

At last Id done it.

I started up the engine and drove out. I instantly flawed the gas pedal as soon as I was out of the estate. I didn't care whether I got court speeding. I had to get to the hospital for Kate.

When I had finally arrived, I ran to Kate's ward, where they directed me to the ICU (Intensive Care Unit) I knew it, something was really bad. I had got to her room to find mum and dad on either side of her bed, holding onto her hands for dear life. It looked like they were all crying. 

"What's going on? Kate are you okay?"

Kate said through tears "It's time Lilly, they're only giving me till tonight, I'm not going to make it any longer."

I broke down then, sunk to my knees and started wailing like a two year old. The pain was unbearable. It was if my heart was the one to stop beating. I had to get out of here. The walls were closing in on me and I felt incredibly claustrophobic. 

I managed to pull myself from my knees and ran out of the room. I kept running and running; not caring if my lungs were burning both from the crying and the exhaustion from the running.

I had to get away from it all. I knew a way, but I didn't really want to embark on that journey again. So I found the elastic band in my bag, slipped it on my wrist and started pinging it to help me focus. 

I finally found a place where I could be alone. I went into the corner and slid down to the floor. There I sat with my head in my knees and cried for what seemed like forever. I felt like a spoiled 2 year old not getting her own way. I knew this day would come when Kate could no longer fight this, but I felt that it was soon. There was so much that she wouldn't be able to do. 

Having children, watching mum and dad grow old, having nieces and nephews, getting a steady boyfriend, marrying. I would have to dream it and record it all for her in a book...

Sometime later, I heard the door open, I didn't bother looking up to see who it was.

"Hey baby girl"

I instantly knew it was Kate. I had to stay strong for her, especially after my little stint earlier. 

"Hi, I'm so sorry about before, I didn't mean to..."

"Listen to me okay? I know this will be the toughest on you, you're my twin of course it will. But mum and dad will need you and you'll need them. Don't even think for one second that I wont be looking down on you all either. I have left you something, it's inside the bottom pillow case of my bed at home. But don't look at it until I'm gone. No one else knows about this, so keep it to yourself until the time comes. "

I listened very carefully, especially at the next part of Kate's speech.

"You may feel so alone at school and other places but you need to know that you will not be. It will be so hard to keep on not self harming once I've gone, because I know and you know that I motivate you every single day to be positive and happy and to keep away from the blades. But if you do find yourself slipping into that way again, I've been talking to a teacher at school about what you have been through and she has agreed to help you every single step of the way."

"Woh-woh wait a minute. Who exactly is this teacher?"

"Don't worry Lilly, it's just Mrs Lloyd from the support team. I had to talk to her sweetie, I can't have you suffering even more because of you wanting to hurt yourself."

I knew Kate was right, she's only looking out for me as usual. 

We got up and went back to Kate's room in the ICU...

We were all sat around with Kate, talking laughing, rekindling memories. It was so very tough; to see Kate smiling to keep us all happy, protecting us from what was about to happen.

I held Kate in my arms as she struggled with her last few breaths. I was holding in the tears, Kate was whispering things to me

"I'll... always be with ..you, you're... stronger.... than you... think."

Then she said to all of us in her whispered, tiny, fragile voice

"I... love. you all... so much.."

That was it.

Kate had passed away in my arms. 

There was nothing left to do, I kissed Kate''s head, put both arms around her Teddy bear and whispered "Goodnight Kate, let the angels take care of you. I love you, forever and always."

The nurse came in then, put the sheet over Kate's head and said we had a few minutes if we wanted until we had to leave.

I left then, told mum and dad they could have time with Kate on their own and that i'd be in the cafe.

I felt numb, I didn't cry, I didn't feel upset. I just didn't feel anything; I was grateful for it though. I didn't want to feel the tightening pain in my chest.

I sat in the cafe, staring at nothing in particular, just waiting to go home. Mum didn't want me driving home, so she said we'd come and get the car in the morning.