Demi's litlle warrior

Chapter 5 What happens now

*Warning, may be triggering*

3 months later after Kate's death

Things were getting a whole lot worse at school. They weren't pretending to be nice anymore. I had no friends and no one to talk to. I still refused to go and talk to Mrs Lloyd about it all though. Like how is she suppose to help me, she can't bring Kate back, which means I'm still going to get bullied. 

But I was taking care of things in my own way. I was self harming and purging. I wouldn't eat at school and I would only drink water in fear of gaining weight. Yes you guessed it, I had an eating disorder, no one knew but me. I felt that if Kate wasn't hear, then I didn't deserve to eat or drink, I didn't deserve to be a healthy weight. 

I walked down to the cafeteria to get a bottle of water when unfortunately I ran into Lauren, the worst of the bullies. 

"Uh what the fuck do you think your looking at fat slag?"

"n..n..nothing Lauren, I'm sorry."I quickly looked down then, tears threatening to run down my cheeks. 

She then tripped me up.

"Oops, guess you should look where your going then."

I quickly got up and ran to the bathroom. I slammed the door shut and grabbed my blade from my pocket and dug it deep into my wrist. I made several more cuts like this, numbness riding over me. 

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I quickly unlocked the door, thankful that mum and dad weren't in. I literally threw myself onto my bed a cried. I cried for the loss of Kate, I cried for feeling loneliness. I cried because of the bullying. I cried because I wanted to get out of this hell whole, yet I didn't know how to do it.

Then I suddenly heard voices.

Lilly, there's so many ways to end it. Just listen to us and do as we say and you'll be able to successfully go. 

Go on I thought, this could be quite useful.

No one wants you hear, your parents may feel upset , but after a while they wont even remember how you look or sound. We suggest you jump off a building, it is the most successful way and will guarantee your death as long as the building is tal enough. This will have to be done late at night though. Otherwise people will try and stop you. 

Lilly we will always be hear, as long as you listen to us, there wont be a problem. Now go and purge and cut like a good little girl you are. 

I went straight into my bathroom and did exactly as they told me. 

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Sorry for the boring beginning, I didn't know what to put.