Demi's litlle warrior

Chapter 1- The hospital

I stared outside of the little window in the hospital; saw the busy street on a Wednesday afternoon.

My sister Kate was dying of Leukemia and there was nothing I could do to save her. See Kate's my twin, we've been through everything together; she laughs, I laugh. I cry, she cries and so the cycle continues. Yet seeing her like this, slipping further away from me every day, it breaks me.

Two years ago, I was getting severely bullied, no one knew for months. Until one day Kate had come into our bedroom when I was cutting my wrist with a razor. She ran over to me screaming "nooooo" but it was too late; the blood was dripping down my wrist. Kate sat next to me, cradled me whilst we both cried. 

When I was ready to talk, I told her everything that has been happening to me. The beatings name calling and hate mail. 

"Why didn't you tell me baby girl?"

"I couldn't, they said they'd get to you; I had to protect you, I had ..." I was crying again. The physical, mental and emotional pain was getting too much for me, I was cutting daily. I was trapped in this dark world. I just had to get out. 

Kate had told mum and dad and they had gotten the help and support that I needed...

That was before Kate got ill. I had gone three months without cutting when things had turned around. Completely.

The doctors didn't know how Kate had gotten the cancer; they gave her all of the medication and chemotherapy that she could handle. But it only gave her a couple more years.

They offered Kate to think about the 'Make a wish foundation' where they give dying kids their last wish. Kate and I are HUGE Demi Lovato fans, so it was certain that her wish would be to visit Demi. So she took me with her.

We flew out to Demi's house out in LA, where not only did we get to meet her; she took us to her studio and recorded us three singing so she could show it in her forthcoming concert.

Kate had the time of her life and I was so glad to see Kate genially smile again. Demi had turned Kate's whole perspective of life around. She no longer hated life for giving her cancer; instead she understood that she was just put on that path for a reason...

I came away from the window, sat next to Kate and put her hand in mine. We just sat there talking about our childhood together. 

"Remember when we went to that beach and you saw that boy. You fell over in front of him."

 "Hahaha, yeah I do, he wasn't even fit. What was I thinking?" I said. We both sat there laughing at the memory. 

Just then the doctor came in to check on Kate.

"Hi Kate how are you feeling at the moment?"

"um, I'm alright just I feel a little..." Kate was sick everywhere, she started crying then. I tried to comfort her, but it was no use.

"I'm dying Lilly, there's nothing left to do, I'm ready to go now."

"Does mum and dad know this, because I'm quite sure they wouldn't agree with you, we need you Kate..."

I was getting angry, I, we needed Kate, how could she just lose all of her will to carry on living. I know she wont live for very much longer, but still. The doctor was pulling on my arm; signalled me outside. great what did he want?

"Look Lilly, I know you're upset, but this is what Kate wants, she knows she's ready. She knows that it can happen at any given moment."

"I know, I ... I,,, its just..." I was in full blown hysterics. I knew the inevitable would happen at some point, I guess I was the only one who couldn't let her go. That even though mum and dad would be so upset and hurt, they'd understand that she wouldn't be in anymore pain.

"Right listen to me Lilly, go home, talk to your parents about this and if you really want, I can arrange for some counseling or something if you'd like?"

I wasn't thinking straight and wasn't really paying much attention, 

"yes please"