A Mess. DIARY

VII

I can't understand myself
Why do I miss people that I shouldn't be missing
Why do I miss you when you're the one who broke my heart

Too tired to understand you but surprisingly I do understand
Too much pain to handle
Too much anxiety but still I can't help myself

Can't we just go back to the old us?
The happy one
I'm soooooo tired being tired and sad

I've tried so hard but I still woke up every 2 am
Thinking about the things we could be
Not crying outside but actually dying inside

Everyday I saw you happy and contented
It makes me happy too but actually it pains me
Seeing you happy with her cause too much damage

I'm not okay right now but soon I'll be:)