'24th of September
13th day of being trapped. the time is 9:53 and in seven minutes the bell which wakes us up every morning it is going to ring . it is really annoying but i guess i need to get used to it if i am gonna spent the rest 60 years of my amazing life in here if we suppose that i will die at the age of 80. so--'
"fuck." i sighed and threw tha pencil on the wall.
it is my first time ever that i keep a diary and it is really hard for me to express myself. i mean.. i usually dont talk about my personal life , if that is called life, to em notebooks. not to be rude.
also i find it way more interesting to swear to someone like face to face, than writting it down, quietly.
and driiiing.the annoying bell we were talkig about.
"i am awake!" i shouted as i saw the big metallic door in front of me opens.
"good morning chaewon." the fat sister said while walking in to the room.
"it was untill you came." i whispered but oops looks like she heard me.
"excuse me?"
"forget it" i said simply.
she faked a smile and gave me a plate with an apple on it saying "here is your breakfast"
"aw thank you for taking care of my silhouette" i said sarcastically.
she faked a smile for the second time and walked out of the room without saying anything else.
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'free time' we can finally leave our cells. so the ugly guard unlocked the door and after he gave me the permission to leave i went out on the dark hallway. i prefer using the stairs since the elevator is like a hunderd years old. i am in tha last floor of the building and i needed to go to the 3rd so i started walking to my destination untill i was finally behind the wooden, old door.
i slowly opened it and sighed once again as almost everyone was inside the room.
the asylum's "living room", according to the sisters , is like 20meters long , something tha makes my everyday life even harder since i have to cross the whole room to reach my table.
i started walking while looking around, the disgust was obvious in my face.
on my right, kim taehyung was sitting on a chair wich was facing the wall. he is 22 years old, he rarelly speaks so its hard to tell if he actually has a problem. park jimin ,an also 22 year old boy , was sitting on a table right next to him. he is a rapist, he has killed more than 32 women and he is completely insane. next to him it was jung hoseok he is 24 years old, he has actually two different personalities ,one really sweet and kind and one really.. em deadly? anyways hoseok was talking to park chanyeol, he is 25 years old ,his illness its not that serious he just hears voices from time to time somethings that may make him loose control. and no he is not a murderer.
on my left is jeon jungkook, 20 years old, he tried to kill himself at least 6 times while he is conidered as a dangerous person for him and for the people around him too. this is why he always has his hands trapped in these boxes. jungkook is having a talk with the twins buyn yeonhee and seohyun they em actually eat people . i really dont like them.
and in the table next to mine was sitting kim namjoon he is 24 years old ,he keeps talking about the end of the world, and kim dahyun she is 20 and she is just like me. she pretends. also my only friend in here.
the building is separated in two. the most dangerous ones are kept on the west side and thats the main reason why it is included by only ten patients,there are some exeptions tho , such as chanyeol and namjoon, i dont know why, while the eastern one includes patiens that are just like em.. normal crazy people?
to be honest our side, the west side, is way more funnier than the eastern one and thats because we are all young here and we know how to have fun by causing trouble. i cant imagine how it would be with 20 old men and women in here, i would be bored to death.
"i am loosing my patience." dahyun said while sitting on the empty chair near me.
"what was he talking about." i said and i looked at namjoon who was now sitting alone.
"nothing different than the usuals." she made a small paused and the she continiued "tomorrow we have imports"
"so?no one is gonna come to the west side anyways." i said
"dont be so sure.i heard that two boys are coming." she announced, the excitment was obvious on her voice.
"why are you so excited about it?they will probably be perverts and annoying just like everyone else in here." i said while looking at jung hoseok and park chanyeol who started yelling at each other.
nah who cares.
"they are still hot tho." she said and a big smile made its appearance on her face.
"whatever." i rolled my eyes and i was ready to ask her something when a doctor came into the room and said "kim dahyun and...byun yeonhee?"
the two girls raised a hand as a sign that they were present and the followed the doctor after she said that the psychologist was ready to take a look at them. and i was alone again.
"jesus" i mumbled when i saw jimin coming towards me after giving me an ugly smile.
"dont even think about it." i said when he was ready to say something.
"you dont even know what i am going to say" he complained and sat on the empty chair.
"i dont care i am already bored." i said and i stand up.
"can you please sit down?i just want to talk."
"agh what." i rolled my eyes and sat again.
"you know you are here for almost two weeks but we never had the chance to meet each other properly." that ugly smile again. "i am jimin" he has to be kidding me.
no?
oh okay then.
"and i am done sorry" i started walking towards the door knowing that i am the next person the doctor is going to call.
i looked back and jimin was already making a converstation with seohyun.
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"can you please tell me what do you see here?" the charming psychologist in front of me asked ,while showing me a paper with dark paint on.
"are you serious" i said hoping this was just a really bad joke.
"please answer the question." seokjin insisted .
"um... a headless body. i think".
he didnt say anything just sighed and looked at me with a serious expression.
"what, that is what i see" i said
"mmm. okay i will call you again one of these days" he said while writing something on a red notebook, probably that i am some kind of psycho who sees dead bodies into simple pain.
he was looking at me when he finally said "you can leave now."
i nodded and stand up from that really uncomfortable bed.
i said a simple hi and walked out of the room.
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okay so i know this sucks and its boring af but i promise the next one will be better.:(
