When I was a kid, I always imagine myself wearing that beautiful wedding gown as I walk down the aisle while my groom's waiting for me until I reached the altar.
But lately, the thought of me getting married becomes just a thought.
"I am very sorry to say this Ms. Vasco but you're dying... you were supposedly to live for about 1 year... or less depends on how your body reacts." Maliwanag na sabi ng doktor.
Naiintindihan ko iyong bawat salitang sinabi niya pero ko alam kung bakit umaasa ako na iba ang maririnig ko, na mali iyong diagnose sa akin ng dalawang doktor sa Pilipinas that's why I went all the way here in New York.
This is already a third opinion but the result was still the same. I just smiled and thanked the Doctor before leaving the clinic.
Life's really unfair. It fucks you up in the midst of you thinking nothing but happiness.
My head was too occupied para mapansin na may tumatawag pala sa phone ko kanina pa. My whole body cant feel anything even the vibration of my phone.
Colby calling...
Upon seeing his name on my phone's screen, I practiced to act fine before answering the call.
"Hey!" I greeted in my most possible lusty tone.
"Hey, you doin' great there?" I bit my lower lip as I combed my hair with my hand.
"Yeah, alam mo namang travel is my life right?" I uttered a fake giggle. Oh God! I am one of those people who curse those who's good at lying but here I am.
"Oh come on Sydney, we already went there last year!" I loved how he recites my name, and I always will.
I wish I could tell him but I can't. I just love this man so much that I wanted to be selfish and just stay by his side until my last breath but I couldn't stop thinking of him crying because of me. He has a life, and it shouldn't stop when I die. He has to live and I want nothing but happiness for him.
"I miss you baby, when are you coming home?" He sounded like a kid waiting for his mom and that's too cute.
"I miss you too baby, soon okay? I love you so much..." and I'm sorry for what is happening...
"I love you too... please take care okay? I wanna marry you already..." He pulled out a sigh before ending the call.
Nagsimula nang mamuo ang luha sa mga mata ko. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula, hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. Hindi ko alam kung hanggang kailan ko kayang magsinungaling. I hated it when I lie lalo na kay Colby, he don't deserve this because what he always do is to assure me that I am loved, he were too sure about me.
Everything was going smooth and fine. I am a careered woman, I have money, a wonderful family, and I have Colby...
I'm just waiting to get married with my Colby... but this illness wont let me.
Putanginang buhay to.
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