The Alpha's Badass Luna

CHAPTER 13: I've Got You

Jordan's PoV
I have been staying in a hotel a few states away from Blake and the pack, it has been really difficult to be away from him, so much so that it was starting to bring me physical pain.

I knew he would find me soon, he probably has half the pack searching for me by now, but I had to get away, I couldn't let that monster ruin my life anymore, i couldn't help but feel the guilt build up inside me. I was a horrible mate.

Blake has never shown me a reason to doubt him, so why is my mind playing sick games with me? I haven't been eating anything since I left him because I can't stomach anything and end up throwing it back up, I've hardly drank anything, I probably stink because I haven't showered either, all I can seem to do is stare at the dirty cracked wall of this dingy hotel room.

I most likely look close to death, my hair matted and tangled with mud, twigs and leaves, my skin pale and my lips cracked from my dehydration, my eyes lifeless. I felt like I was dying inside, I needed him, I wanted him, but would he want me still once he finds out my baggage.

I stand up from my statue like state and slowly make my way to the grimy bathroom, then I begin to remove my worn and muddy clothes. I turn the shower onto practical scolding, I'm not going to feel anything anyway. I get into the shower and it a wave of emotions hit me.

Beginning to sob, I slid my back down the shower wall and fall to the ground, curling up into a broken ball. I need my Blake. But I'm not good enough, who would want a mate with an abused past, the baggage that I carry would push him away eventually, so I may as well just do it myself now before I fall more in love than I already have.

After getting out the shower I redress in the clothes I was previously wearing and sit back in my previous position. I haven't slept in a few days and it began to catch up with me, before I knew it I had fallen asleep on the bed, gripping a pillow in my arms.

The grass scraped along the sides of my legs as I walked through a foreign clearing in the middle of a woods. The sun was beating down on me, sitting on the surface of my skin and causing a sheen of sweat to coat the back of my neck and forehead. Ahead of me a saw two figures that looked as though they were conflicted.

As I got closer I realized that it was Blake and a man that I didn't recognize. Suddenly they both spun around towards me. Blake held a sad look in his eyes, I was about to question him when the other man grabbed him from behind and brought a knife towards his neck.

"This is your fault" the mysterious man shouted, with much hatred in his voice. Then he dragged the edge of the knife against Blake's neck, blood began to pour from Blake's neck. I heard an ear piercing scream, only to realize it was coming from me. I began to run towards Blake. The man having disappeared.

Once I reached him I dropped down onto my knees next to him and gripped his shirt whilst burying my head into him chest. "Blake? Blake baby, you need to wake up, I need you, I need you. You can't leave me, you can't!" I began to sob so hard I could no longer speak.

I woke up with tears streaming down my face and at a loss of breath. Blake. I had to see him, Two weeks without him was too much and if the thought of losing him forced me to see him again, so be it.

I don't think I could deal with the pain if he left me too. I need to tell him what happened to me, I know that because I'm pushing him away, but I didn't want him leaving me, I had to go to him otherwise I would surely die if I carried on with my state.

Even though my stomach felt like it was turning on itself I get up from the spot that I had been accommodating for the past few days and began to drag myself out the door of my room and down the corridor towards reception. There was a bus station a little up the road, I could take an overnight bus back to Blake.