Life's weird turns - Nash Grier

chapter 12

Chapter 12:

*New Year’s*

I woke up that morning and felt very weird, it was finally New Year’s, and 2014 was actually going to be over. I was very happy; maybe next year was going to be better, maybe the bullying would stop, and maybe just maybe, things with Nash would become serious.

I looked at my clock, and it said it was 11:40 A.M, so I just went downstairs to get breakfast, when I saw something in the floor, next to the door, I went to pick it up, and it was a note.

See ya’ at my house at 10:00 p.m., my parents are hosting what they call a “party” (of course it’s not a party but like a reunion, so don’t bring your cigarettes), and wanted you to be there, they really liked you last time, also my sister thinks you two can have lots of fun together.

Don’t be late

-Nash

I couldn’t help but to smile to that note, it was very cute. I finished eating my breakfast and went to take a bath. When I got out, I took my towel and headed outside, I don’t know if it was the cold weather, or what, but I could feel my panic attack coming, and a moment later, I was in the floor, not being able to breathe because of the asthma.  I had to do my best to get to my purse and take my pills, but I made it. I then felt a little better.

I finished getting dressed, I put on a pair of dark grey skinny jeans, a Levi’s hoodie, and a blackmilk beanie, then went outside with my penny board.

I went to the cemetery, where my parents and sister were buried, went to their graves, that were located next to each other, and took out a foldable chair I had in my backpack, then, I took my cigarettes and my lighter. I used to do that once in a while, I would just go there, sat with them, and kept them company, sometimes I even talked to them; and the only things that kept me from killing myself in the spot, were my cigarettes.

“I miss you very much you know?”  I said to their graves, I liked to think that they heard me, that their spirits could hear what I was saying to them somehow. I calmed me down. “I can’t believe it has been three years now, it seems like it was just yesterday when we spent 2010’s new year’s camping in the woods. That was the best new years I have ever had, and I hope I never forget that” I took a sip of my cigarette, felt how the smoke went to my lungs, and then let it out. “if I could, I would do anything just to see you guys again sometime” I said starting to cry a little, and then wiped away my tears, I really didn’t want them to see me cry, if they even could, specially my dad, because he always said to me: “Casey, always remember this quote for life “don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened”, and in this situation it applied perfectly, don’t cry because they are gone, smile because you had the chance to be with them for a while.

But after two hours of being there, it started to rain, and not just a little rain. I think it was a storm; but I didn’t care, I just wanted to be with them for at least one more hour, and so I just sat there, water already pouring from my hair and clothes.