Life As An Idol || Blackpink (Hybrid Version)

Letter 1

Dear Jisso Unnie,
I know that Jin told you what happened. It isn't something that should be a secret. Please don't think it was your fault.. I was being dumb. You shouldn't feel like you didn't do your job as being the eldest. You shouldn't feel like it was your fault. I should of paid more attention. All you wanted was to help me. You thought it was your job, to take care of me and the others. I should've noticed it.. Instead I locked myself in the studio, ignoring your requests to eat food. When I first met you..I thought you were going to be one of those mothers that nag at everyone. I was wrong. I was wrong in a lot of things. I've just been hiding my mistakes. I've been hiding under a mask this entire time. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything I've ever done to make you angry. I'm sorry for being a burden. I'm sorry for not being myself. I should've noticed. I should've known that you were trying to help. Instead, I hid behind that fake smile. That fake smile I've been hiding behind for years. That fake smile that people have grown to love. I wish I was myself. I wish I wasn't a burden. I wish I was real.

I'll be gone by the time you read this. If you look in my computer, You'll see daily logs I recorded until the day I died. You'll figure out some things that I've never told you..

My last request for you is to not be sad. Please don't feel like you're a failure. The last thing I want is for you and the girls to be sad. Just keep being who you are. Keep being the light you are. I promise I'll watch over you. It's the only promise I can't break.

I love you Unnie
~Raven