Life As An Idol || Blackpink (Hybrid Version)

Letter 7

Dear Yoongi,
I guess..You never really knew this now did you? You weren't always the brightest. Even as a child, you weren't the brightest. You were my best friend though. I kept this hidden from you. I kept trying to hide. I didn't want you to remember. You couldn't. I wouldn't accept it. The pain you cause me... I didn't want you to remember. I didnt want to relive that pain. I left. I left after you broke my heart. I couldn't take the pain. It was painful to look at you. That's why I was acting weird when we first met. I didn't want to remember it. Just looking at you made me remember. You were so innocent back then. What happened? What happened to the Yoongi that I knew as kids? I guess you can't answer that. Since I'm gone. I loved you Yoongi. You broke me. I'm a toy that can't be fixed. I still love you. Even after all these years. You never noticed. I thought I made it obvious. Did you notice how much I didn't care about being seen in public? Did you notice how much I cared for you? I tried to see if you had any feelings for me. I tried. I failed. I couldn't tell. It seems like you forgot about our childhood. Do you remember when you asked me if I was okay? I said I was fine. It was the biggest lie I've ever told you. I didn't want to lose you Yoongi. I didn't lose you. You lost me. I moved back to Busan. I couldn't take the pain you were causing me. You were my first love Yoongi. You were my only love. I tried to see other guys. I ended up breaking all of their hearts. All I saw was you. You were my everything. I was willing to do anything for you. Thats why I took your pillow. The song I wanted your opinion on was a song about you Yoongi. I was confessing. Yet you didn't see it. I never showed anyone. You're the first one I go to for songs. Seeing you ignore me..broke me even more.

I guess I was a fool to fall for you. I'm not sure why I still loved you. I just had hope left. That hope died along with me.

The song is in my computer. The title is in this letter.

I loved you.
I wish it was a fake love
It was real

~Yeri