Capable Of Murder...But Not Love

CHAPTER 4

3:42 a.m.

NO NEW MESSAGES.

4:35 a.m.

NO NEW MESSAGES.

5:03 a.m.

NO NEW MESSAGES.

5:37 a.m.

NO NEW MESSAGES.

6:12 a.m.

NO NEW MESSAGES.

Three hours...that is how long I have been waiting here for my mother. I haven't even bothered moving from my seat, not for a drink of water or even for the restroom.

Too afraid that if I leave my spot my mother will come, see that I am not here, and leave me...again.

I have tried texting and calling her over the past 3 hours only to receive nothing in return. To make matters worse after my 12th time calling her, my calls went straight to voicemail.

So, here I am, sitting alone in an airport three hours later, with nothing to show for it, not a voicemail, not a phone call, not even a text message from her.

Letting out a sigh, I take my phone out of my pocket one last time before going to my messages and re-reading the text my mother sent me just minutes before I boarded my flight back in England again...

1:02 p.m.

Mother

I can't wait to see you Piglet. I'll be the first face you see when you land. I love you xoxo.

I must have read that text a thousand times in the span of 3 hours and each time I read it, the more it stings.

"She lied to me." I begrudgingly thought, as I put my head in my hands.

"No Cree, don't say th-." the little voice began before I cut it off.

"NO, SHE HATES ME! SHE DOESN'T WANT ME, THAT'S WHY SHE SENT ME AWAY, SHE DIDN'T WANT TO DEAL WITH A FÚCK UP! I RUINED HER LIFE! I KILLED THE LOVE OF HER LIFE! I RUINED EVERYTHING! WHAT WAS I THINKING IN COMING BACK HERE I N-" my thoughts bellowed.

"Cree." a voice says in the distance.

"NO! NO! NO! SHE HATES ME! SHE HATES ME BECAUSE I'M A FAILURE, I'M A DISGRACE, I RUIN EVERYTHING! PATRICK WAS RIGHT NO ONE WILL EVE-" my thoughts continued to bellow.

"Cree." the voice repeats itself.

"SHUT UP. I RUIN EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT. I'M WORTHLESS AND THAT'S WHY MOM SENT ME AWAY! THAT'S WHY SHE LEFT ME, IT WASN'T FOR MY SAKE, IT WAS FOR HERS! PATRICK WAS RIGHT, EVERYTHING WAS MY OWN FAULT, I DESERVED EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED TO ME A-" my relentless thoughts persisted.

"CREE!" the voice grew louder.

"I SAID SHUT UP YOU F-" my thoughts roared before being yet again cut off by that unrelenting voice.

"CREE!" the voice screeched, knocking me out of my vile thoughts.

It was at that moment that I realized that I knew that voice. Standing up, I scanned my surroundings and that's when I saw her...my mother.

There she was, the woman who I haven't seen in 7 years. The woman who I have been waiting three hours for was finally here, looking just as out of breath and as frantic as I felt.