Diary of Saffiya

CHAPTER SIX: HITLER'S DEMOCRACY

16/02/2016 – 01:00am

''So I had a guy best friend named 'AUSTIN' who was a shy type also a very matured and brilliant student. He was only 2 years elder than me. He fell in love with me since a long time but I didn't accept because of all the stress and problems I had to face. Yet he waited for me. He was so kind, loving, caring and yeah he was my favourite. So I fell for him on 16th of February'' Saffiya never knew the issue of Austin at all. All what she thought was that he is also a normal guy who is really genuine & generous. Mr & Mrs Hailey knew about their affair and they were okay with it. But not Austin's family. They started exchanging gifts, letters & love cards every time they meet. Each and every moment she spent with him was really special. Austin was not like other guys. He didn't love her for any advantage, he loved for another reason. No one knew, so does Saffiya. Since her childhood she had a dreadful health condition which will be never cured. This is the main reason why her school mates didn't like Saffiya being along with any of them. The only thing she hates in Austin is 'DOUBTING & ANGER'. For every single thing he doubts & suddenly starts barking for no reason. She was brutally harassed through words not action. She was almost living the life of the people who lived when Hitler was ruling. Saffiya could not do anything without Austin's permission. In case if she had done, the next second he gets to know he will start the harassment till she weeps for death. Her life was trapped in cage for months. She never had the freedom to talk with her own siblings neither Mr Hailey. Yet Saffiya didn't give up on him although he had torched her mentally.

18/11/2016 - Saffiya got her first job in an airline. She worked hard as much as she can to be success. One day while her training session was going on she got a call from an unknown number. Saffiya ran to ladies washroom to check who it was. '' Hey I got a missed call from this number. If you don't mind can you please tell me who you are?'' all of a sudden the lady on call started barking. Saffiya was confused & she had no idea why this anonymous lady barked. She repeated the question again thinking the lady couldn't have understood. All of a sudden this anonymous lady started telling Saffiya's details. Right now Saffiya was really confused. Then the lady informed that she was none else but Austin's Mother. Saffiya was nervous & terrified to talk to her. But she did as much as she can. Austin's mother was totally against the affair we had. She was forcing me to leave her son alone if not she will be taking advance steps just to make me say YES. Austin's family started calling me the whole day from different contact number just to threaten me. I tried contacting Austin but he did not like to speak with me at all. I had none to share the way I was been mentally violated. Sarah was the only person who stayed beside me and advised what I should do and don't. ''Thank god!!! At least I have a goddess like Sarah!!.'' ''After a few days Austin started talking with me as usual. But not actually as usual, there was a difference. He started making me squeeze under the pressure of mentally torcher. I was prohibited to do anything. I was even scared to breathe without his permission because I know the circumstances I have to face if I did so without his permission.''

A girl should never get someone like him as her life partner. Poor Saffiya fell for another wrong cage and she couldn't even get rid of it. She was totally trapped inside. Still Saffiya didn't get to know Austin's deepest hidden secret. But one day she made Austin say by himself. Austin was a mentally ill patient. Every month he use to go for his check-up and also he's been given tablets to control himself. OMG just imagine what if she gets to know after the marriage. Because Saffiya's family was a bit hurry in it, her whole life would have been destroyed. She will be trapped in that torcher democracy forever and ever. There will not be a single escape for that poor girl. Saffiya couldn't handle his torcher & rules anymore. She needs her family members as well not only her love. So she decided to start moving on with her family without Austin's permission. Austin was really furious on what she did. He started his usual torcher but Saffiya stood over him. She did not cry or get scared for his threaten anymore. Finally both of them came up to a decision. Either Saffiya had to choose Mr Hailey (her father) or Austin. If a child choses a person who came newly to his/her lifer over the parents who took care of him/her for years then that's really called as 'STUPIDITY'. As per my point of view, as a child you should never choose someone else over your parents & family members. Saffiya disagreed in choosing Austin over Mr Hailey. Due to her decision Austin cut down the limit of talking. Their arguments got increased day by day & that is how Saffiya got to know the exact reason why Austin fell in love with her & wanted to marry her. The reason behind was 'SYMPATHY' which was one of the hates word for Saffiya. I agree that she is having a rare health disorder but that does not mean that she cannot get into the society by herself. Just think carefully if society does not accept people like her then she wouldn't have ever gone through higher education & have not got a job even. Health does not matter unless you are not having the accurate capability of handling work in a tricky and perfect manner. ''Listen here Saffiya I don't care whether you leave me or not. I loved you because of sympathy. I didn't want to see you been cornered by the whole society. I wanted to give you a life. For god sake please be happy for what I've done & I am going to do.'' She was tongue-tied after hearing such disgraceful words. ''All these days he played a drama with me. He never loved me truly it was just a sympathy. I never expected such a word from him. Ohhhh god I can't handle this anymore'' she was in total soreness after hearing those words from the person she loved also she had the arrogance towards Austin for trying to take away her family from her & for the democracy torcher she had been given all these months. ''I am done with all the shit. I am not going to beg for a guy who does not understand true love neither the value of a family. Let him suffer seeing me happy. Let him regret for doing such an inhumanity activity for me''. She started to convince herself and moved on.

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