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25

It had been two months. Namjoon had to pull the pups out of daycare because it was too expensive with all the bills and had to ask the old lady down the street to pupsit. She did because he was kind of heart without excepting any money.

He got up from his bed moving the pups away. He stood and felt suddenly sick. He clutched his stomach and held his mouth running to the toilet to empty the contents of his stomach.

He wiped his mouth and checked his temperature before taking some medicine for the upset tummy. He didn't have a fever.. "Daddy I wan udder Daddy," Jin said hugging his legs.

"I know, I do too," he said swiftly picking up the pup and pressing a kiss on his cheek.

For the past week, it occurred nearly the same way he would wake up throw up and comfort the pups. But the second week of his morning adventures he got suspicious.

He did the only thing he knew to do. He dialed up Hoseok's number. "Hello?"

"Hey, it's me. Namjoon," he said.

"Oh hey. What's up?" Hoseok asked cheerfully. He was the only one who still associated with him.

"Do you think you could give me a ride?" he asked shamefully.

"Yeah, when? where?"

"Now, um the pregnancy center," he asked wanting to die.

It was silent on the line before Hoseok squealed "My best friend is pregnant,"

Namjoon awkwardly replied "maybe,"

"Okay. I'll be right over," and then cut the line.

Namjoon got both pups dressed and was happy that today was his free day.

"Come on puppers lets get dressed," he called grabbing out the cute matching red overalls that Jungkook bought them. He teared up thinking about what he had done to the love of his life.

He put the children leashes on them and they waited for Hoseok who got there in record time probably speeding. He dragged the car seats out of the house. Jungkook had left them on his porch one day when he was at work.

"Hey," Namjoon smiled sheepishly before picking up his pups and stepping over the puddle of slush.

"Here, let me help," Hoseok helped him settle everything and began to drive.

"So is it Jungkook's," he asked eyes not leaving the road.

"I never cheated on him. After the pups...I've never slept with anyone, but him," he said holding his head.

"Do you want to be pregnant?" his friend asked.

"I don't know what I want anymore," Joonie replied breaking down in the car.

"I feel so bu-bad, Hobi," he sobbed, "I'm a horrible person,"

"But you're a great dad. You did everything, throwing away your happiness, for your pups and no one should fault you for that," Hoseok calmly said, "Jimin told me that Jungkook cried for a week straight and keeps his necklace in his drawer,"

Namjoon only cried harder pulling the necklace out from under his shirt. Hoseok put a hand on his shoulder pulling into the pregnancy center.

"You want to go in alone? I can watch the pups for a few hours," he said and Namjoon nodded wiping his tears "thanks,"

He turned around in his seat and kissed both of them on the head "be good for uncle Seokie," the nodded happily because they knew they were going to be spoiled rotten.

"By Seok," Namjoon said exiting the car and entering the center. It was a free clinic and run solely on donations.

He wipes his red swollen eyes "um can I have an ah- appointment?" he asked.

The lady behind the counter smiled and handed him paperwork "Can I have a name, sweety?"

"Kim Namjoon," he said looking over the questions.

"Just fill out the highlighted sections your doctor will fill out the rest," she said kindly motioning to the couches that were scattered about.

He took a seat crossing his legs and began writing stuff like his name, birthday, government identification.

"Kim Namjoon?" a kind female omega called.

He stood up and walked over to her handing her the files. "Come this way,"

Once in his private room "Hi, I'm nurse Kim, step on the scale please," he did so. After weight, blood pressure and basic things to make sure he was healthy she sat him down on the bed.

"Drink this and I need you to urinate in this cup," she handed him a clear cup with a white lid.

He nodded knowingly because this, of course, had not been his first time around.

He knew at this point, just needed confirmation. She left after pointing to a bathroom and left.

Namjoon drank the water and relieved himself. He gave her the cup and waited for the results after some time she came back.

She took a seat in the stool and wheeled closer to him on the bed.

"So it came out positive. I know you looked distressed when you came here. So we are gonna talk about options, Okay dear,"

"I'm keeping it," he told her confidently looking down at his flat tummy.

"Of course, okay. We know birthing can be expensive. Here we run off donations. We have parent bucks which we give on each visit and omegas and female betas can purchase items like diapers and toys,"

Namjoon nodded "I've been here before," he sheepishly replied.

"Great. We also offer appointments for those expecting. Do you know when this may have happened?"

"I'm guessing a week before Christmas because I was in heat," he replied shamelessly because nurses prepare for this kind of thing.

"So that would put you at the eight-week mark," she said, "we don't offer ultrasounds normally at this stage, but we can schedule your next appointment in two weeks at your ten-week mark?"

"Yeah that works," he smiled.

"Great," she says again pulling pup her computer "all done, just show up in exactly two weeks!" she said in a cheery voice.

He nodded and left the room. He took a deep breather upon walking outside. He sat at the nearby park letting Hoseok know.

"Daddy!" Baekhyun called and Namjoon turned around and burst into tears pulling the pup to his chest and kissing his cheek before making Seok give him Jin.

"So guess what?" he asked they tilted their heads and giggled.

"You're gonna be big brothers!" he said hugging them they looked confused.

"Whewe?" Jin asked.

"In daddy's tummy," he replied and Jin's eyes widened.

"Daddy gonna come back?" Baek asked looking at him with wide doe eyes.

Namjoon sighed sadly. Such a bad idea letting them get close. He's such a fuck up.

"Why don't you go play?" he ushered them to the jungle gym.

"I know you see Jungkook, but can you tell him for me?" he whimpered.

Hoseok pulled him into a hug "of course," he said patting the omega's back.