Beelzebub

Chapter 5

Everything hurts, everything. But right then I was feeling like a ton of bricks were placed on my head. Sunrays were finely scattered in all over my room.

I rubbed my eyes and groan in pain, throbbing pain was killing me.

When I opened my eyes clearly the bright sun was shining all in its glory that's when I realised something beside me.

Not something, someone.

Looked like most beautiful person in the world, she still is.

Her long brown hairs were draped like a curtain, eyes closed, her lips were puckered in a very irritating manner. She definitely looked like an angel to me.

I was so busy in staring that beauty that I didn't even realise that she was clutching me in her sleep, like she was afraid if anyone would harm her. Her left hand was on my chest in a hugging manner with her legs placed on my legs securely.

I took a long breath and closed my eyes for several minutes more. How my life had been drastically changed in one night was beyond my imagination.

I was fucked up.

Always had been.

But I couldn't risk her life in that hell hole of mine, in my life where I didn't not only choose my sins but my fate. My feet were locked up in a chain, I could never freed myself.

Opening my eyes, I looked at her again. My hands instinctively raised to gently remove her bangs from her forehead. I didn't even know when my lips planted on  her forehead, " Everything will be fine princess, I won't ever let anything happen to you".

She stirred a little and turned otherside. A soft smile played on my lips when I saw her irritated in her sleep. Without wasting an ounce of time I got up from bed and got ready for work.

I took a quick shower and threw a pair of black sweatpant with grey sweatshirt hurriedly. Grabbing the car key I stormed towards my car, not before securely locking the door behind me.

Starting my engine I pulled over to the far away ladies garments store, the chances of acknowledging me would be less.

"umm... Can I have an pair of ladies clothes?" I asked to the lady who must be in her early twenties. She examined me from head to toe and batted her fake eyelashes. I was kinda bored of from all attention I usually got because of my physique, no one could say I was only eighteen with six feet height and broad shoulders. I smirked and leaned in, when I was good inches away from her caked face she took a sharp breath " yeah absolutely sir."

"Like what you see?" I raised my eyebrows a little and damn fucking pathetically she blushed.

"ye-- ohh sir can you please tell me her height and age?" she asked.

I thought for a second then "she's nine years old and her height probably would be five feet."

I informed her and she nodded her head, a joyous smile played on her lips this time as she lead the way to the section where I could find some clothes for Lilly.

"It would be fine if you just grab some clothes for her and whatever she'll need and  I'll take it and make sure nothing is left." I explained, the whole shopping for a little girl was fucking new to me.

She smiled again and I started to thinking if she was giving me an advertisement of her toothpaste.

"okay" she mumbled, leaving me there. I waited for the girl for ten minutes and when she returned she had already packed everything in shopping bags.

"Here, I have already packed everything she'll need." she handed me the bags, I turned my feet to the cash counter when suddenly a hand grabbed my wrist. I turned around and found that girl faking a smile again.

" I gave something for your need too." she said and winked her eye. My lips twitched evily when I saw a paper with script phone number in the bags.

I licked my lips just trying to make her turned on, her eyes fell on my lips.

"That's very considerate of you darlin' " I mumbled and winked back in her way. After paying the cash I got into my car and ride to my apartment.

That girl was sick but she helped me to take my mind off from the fucked up situations in my life, which I liked a lot. May be she was sick but who cared, I was sicker than her.

I reached my apartment after 15 minutes of driving and took all those shopping bags in my hands. I opened the lock of the door and heard weeping sound.

A shiver ran from my spine as I recognised the voice. Her muffles, her sobbs.

"Princess?"

"Princess?"

"Lilly where are you?"

I shouted and looked in my room, kitchen and in the guest room but I couldn't find her.

Adrenaline rushed through my vein as a flood in river. My mind was playing horrific images in my brain, making it more worse for me.

Her sobbing voice became more and more loud like someone was choking her. I searched in my room again because last time I left her sleeping in my bed. That was when I heard her bowling came closer.

Closer.

More closer.

I opened the shower door and saw something my mind won't be able to erase ever.

There was Lilly sitting in the shower with her knees in her chest and sobbing hard. Her head was buried in her knees. She was gasping for air that simply wasn't there. Like her spirit needed to be freed, she had so much raw pain insider her. Her every inch of cells were screaming in pain, in sorrow, in grief.

Everything faded,

Totally, completely everything became blur.

I tried to push back the strange feelings once but her helpless crying made it impossible for me.

Possible for her to kill me inside.

She was helpless, her past would always make her cower,  the felling of weakness boiling inside of her. She was destitute and unable to move. Her memories were filled with horror and monotonous feeling. I could feel everything she was feeling, because she wasn't only one living her nightmares but  I was living in my worst nightmares too.

The absolute horror completely paralyzed me, I thought for once leaving her there and simply pretend that I didn't saw her, I didn't saw her broke,

Piece by piece.

Inch by inch.

But I couldn't like my feet were glued to the floor.

Her bawling and shaking shoulder would be forever haunt my dreams, If I would ever have any. They were like a knife stabbing my heart again and again.

But I had to take it.

Even if it meant to take every stab.

I simply moved a bit and felt discouraged and utterly terrified.
I didn’t remember being that scared in my life, and that was just the beginning.