random drabbles and short stories

Because you didn't love me

Because you didn't love me,

I went home with an abrupt agony in my chest.

It wasn't your everyday chest ache.

It was an unusual and foreign kind of discomfort.

This pain I felt transformed into a knot in my stomach.

That was the first-day flower petals emerged from deep inside my being.

Because you didn't love me,

I spent what seemed like an hour retching and heaving

When my urge to gag dissolved, I examined the flower petals

What shocked me the most about this whole experience, was how they looked like

Black, and impassive. Like my soul.

Because you didn't love me,

I tossed and turned at night, scared for my fate

The next day, you looked at me.

Your glowing appearance, a contrast to my exhausted one, melted all my worries away.

I was that blind and sensitive.

Two hours later, I knew what made me retch those gloomy petals.

And my worry and concern increased. I frantically hoped you would love me overnight.

You didn't and never did.

Because you didn't love me,

I got the disease people called Hanahaki.

They said it only affected the victims of unrequited love

Of course I have this ailment, who would love me anyway?

That girl. The one you talk to ceaselessly. The one that makes your dimple show endlessly.

You love her, don't you?

I wouldn't be retching this much if you didn't. The pain is unbearable, lethal, almost.

But like a stubborn child, I still hoped for you to love me.

Because you still don't love me,

The freedom of Heaven awaits me.

Hi guys!. I finally uploaded something, yayy!!!!. Don't worry, Hanahaki disease isn't real. It's a fictional disease. Thanks for supporting me and actually reading my pieces. Don't be silent readers!!!! Comment what you think and feel free to bash me when I go wrong lol. 

~Ella💙