You know these tears falling now
As my arm is in dead nerve pain
There not for the pain
Not even close
Because I felt this pain before
Nothing new
My body seems to give me random reminders
That I'm still human and can get random pangs of pain whenever I move the wrong way
But I never cried
No tears, just constant scrunching up of my face in pain
But never bawling on the floor in a fetus position as I had done minutes before
So as I wiped those dusty tears away
I realized I haven't properly cried in awhile
No matter how pain stinging sad my heart was
I just shed a few tears, then quickly wipe them away before they spill out
I thought it was stupid to cry over these minuscule things (past and present)
There really is no point for my problems to cause my tears
To be truthful my tears shed quicker if I was weeping for a friends sadness
The shooting abrupt pain in my arm
Gave an excuse for those tears to fall
Because I mean ha physical pain is much more prideful to cry over than my stupid "problems"
But in the end I know that's fucking miserable isn't it?
But as I read from Emilie autumn ~ "Falling's just another way of flying"
I must be soaring through the trees then right?
