I'll follow you into the dark❤️

Four

Trixie's POV

"Come on Kat we are gonna be late!"
"I'm coming calm your tits"

I run out the door and get in on the passenger side of her car. My mom will be back tonight and I'm not ready for katya to leave. But I also am dreading the talk I'm gonna have to have with her. She doesn't know I'm gay. She likes to throw around the word dyke whenever she hears someone is a lesbian. I hate that word. It breaks me down. Makes me sound gross or vile. I am pulled out of my thoughts by the car door slamming. Katya puts the key in the ignition and then kisses me on the cheek.

"Wanna go get some coffee?"
"Please"

We have this really cute little coffee shop right by the school. We pull into the school parking lot and park then we go get something. I grab an iced coffee with vanilla and katya goes for just plain hot coffee. I grab banana bread and we head over to the school. Just as we were walking in the 1st bell rings. Katya and I sprint off into different directions towards our lockers. As I'm about to get to my locker I am stopped by someone.

"Look who it is miss Beatrice Mattel"

I look up and it's a girl from my old school who used to bully me.

"What do you want missy?"
"So I heard you were a dyke"
"So what if I am?!?"
"Just letting you know dykes go to hell."
She chuckles and walks off. I feel tears well up in my eyes. But I wipe them away. I look at the time and I am 15 minutes late to first period. I decide to take my banana bread to the bathroom.

I sit down on the toilet and just break down. Just then I hear the door open. I can smell the faint smell of cigarette smoke covered up by a strawberry scented perfume. I could recognize that perfume anywhere. I look under the door and sure enough she is wearing shoes like everyone else but with a skull and bones colored on it with white sharpie. I bring myself to come out of the stall. Knowing that my makeup is gonna be all smeared. As I open the door she turns around.

"Hey trix!"

I don't answer and I look up at her. Tears running down my face.

"Oh no what happened?"
"One is the old bully's from my school came up to me and called me a dyke and told me I was gonna go to hell!"
"Who did this! I swear to god I will kill them."
"It was missy. She has bullied me since second grade."
"I know trix I know."
Katya pulls me into a hug and we hold each other for a few minutes. Just then we hear the 2nd period bell ring and I pull myself away and clean up my makeup. I kiss katya and head out to my second class. Luckily we have second period together.

After what felt like forever school was finally over. But now I had to worry how I was gonna tell my mom. She should be home by now.

"Hey Kat is it ok if you just drop me off at my house for now and then I will bring you your stuff later."
"Yea sure trix what's up?"
"Nothing I just think it's time to talk to my mom about you know.."
"Yea I understand. Do you want me there for support or.."
"No Kat thank you but I think I should just talk It out with my mom just us two."
"Yea ok I get you."

Katya pulls up to my house and I get out.

"I love you trix"
"I love you more!"

I run inside and my mom is sitting at the table.

"Hey mom."
"Hey trixie I missed you."
"I missed you too."
"So tell me about your week. Any new friends.. boyfriends?"
"Actually that's what I wanted to talk to you about...."
"Ooh what's his name is he cute."
"No mom I don't have a boyfriend."
"What?"
"Mom I have a girlfriend."

She looks at me. Taken aback by my words. I'm so happy I got that out though.

"Beatrice Nicole Mattel what did you just say."
"I said I have a girlfriend"
"What in the world would make you think that I would be ok with that?!?!"
"Mom please it makes me happy!!"
"I don't care if it makes you happy you are a girl and you should have a boyfriend!"
"MOM! I CANT BELIEVE YOU."
"Well is it at least someone I know?"
"It's katya..."
"Oh.. well at least I like her. Baby. You have to cut me some slack here I was not expecting this."
"Neither was I mom. Neither was I!"

I run up to my bedroom. I don't know wether to be upset or happy. I cry into my pillow for a while. Then I hear a knock on the door.

"Hey trixie"
"What do you want mom? Are you back to tell me how much of a disappointment I am?"
"No honey. I'm here to tell you that if it makes you happy. Then I'm happy. Tell her to come over tonight. I'm making your favorite."
"Wait mom really?"
"Yes trixie. Your my baby and it took me a while to come to terms with it. But I love you just the way you are."
"I love you so much mom"

She wipes my tears away. This is one of the first times she actually felt like a mother to me. I felt loved by her. Something that was very rare. It felt great to tell her this. I feel great!