I'll follow you into the dark❤️

Twelve

Trixie's POV

CANCER!! What no. There has to be a mistake. In the short time of getting home from Paris I had already called my grandma to get me and bring me to the hospital. She put her hand on my shoulder and said sorry and pulled me into a hug. We both are crying at this point. My mom is so sick she can barely remember me. She has stage 3 Neuroblastoma. I pull out of the hug and decide to call katya.

K: hey babe what's up?
T: hey can you come to the hospital?
K: trix what happened? Are you ok?
T: I'm fine, I just need you here.
K: ok but what happened?
T: I will explain when you get here.
K: ok babe see you in a few.

At this point my grandma left the room to get some water. I sat by her bedside and started talking even though I knew she couldn't hear me.

"Hey mom. It's Beatrice. Well I hope you get to see dad soon. I saw how sad you were when he passed but now you get to go see him. I heard you haven't been very responsive these days. Only moving your eyes. Well that's ok mom. We have rough days. I love you."

Just then I got a text. I looked down and it was katya saying she was here. I collected myself and went down to the lobby to meet her. I see her and bring her into the elevator. We were the only two and I broke down.

Trixie what happened?
My mom...
Oh my god is she ok?
She has cancer.
Oh...

Katya grabbed me and started crying. Then I explained everything and what she has and how she is. Katya asked if she could talk to hers I brought her into the room and let her go in to talk. I propped open the door a bit so I could hear what she was saying. I knew she wanted privacy but I was curious.

"Hey heather. Or should I say mom. I know you can't really hear me. But I want you to know that I'm gonna miss you very much. But I know you will recover. You will get through this. You have always been a fighter. Wether it's fighting the sad after your husbands passing or almost physically fighting the 2nd grade bully that cut off one of trixies curls. Yes I do still remember that. Or the time Trixie fell off her bike and you threatened to break the bike because it hurt her and yk it would always make her laugh. Well I know you are an amazing mother. You and trix do have your differences but you found a way. And I'm so happy for you guys. Hey just between you and me... I wanna marry your daughter. And I would hate to not hear you say yes. So if you can hear me, If something is happening up there. Squeeze my hand once if you say yes or twice for no. Oh OH! It's yes. Oh thank god it's yes. I love you so much mom."

After that she kisses her on the forehead and starts heading towards the door.

Hey trix you can stay with me tonight. My dad and stepmom won't mind. They surely will understand with everything going on.

Thanks Kay I appreciate it.

I walk up to my grandma and I tell her I'm going with katya. I then get in her car and we head back to my house.

Hey Kat can we actually sleep at my house. I wanna sleep in my bed but with you.

Sure trix I don't mind.

The rest of the ride home is silent. Both of us captivated in the same emotion but feeling it so differently. She has no idea I heard the convo. And I'm happy I did. After what felt like hours we finally pull up to my house. I silently walk up to my room and lay down. Katya stays downstairs and does something. I don't wanna move. The grief finally takes over my body. My mom is gonna die tomorrow because she is so sick and I'm so late to see her and I don't know what to do anymore. I just lay there. Katya comes in with some water and goes into my closet for pajamas.

Hey trix are you gonna sleep in your jeans?

I don't answer. Just stare blankly at my ceiling. Katya comes over and lifts me up. She puts me on her lap and cuddles me.

Trix I know how you feel but you need to get changed.

I just lay there limp. I don't know how to feel or what to do. It gets to the point where katya just takes off my clothes leaving my bra and underwear  and  tucks me in. The she cuddles next to me. I lay awake until my body forces me to sleep. Finally some peace.