agony // memori

{ second letter }

  "tears shed for another person are not a sign of weakness. they are a sign of a pure heart."  

dear murphy, 

i didn't cry since i found your body. i shed no tears. until today.

bellamy talked with me. he made me see that i was just in denial. 

so i cried. i cried for hours. and i'm still crying while i'm writing this.

you're gone, murphy. you're the love of my life. the man i love. 

and you're gone. 

i couldn't stop it. i should have noticed. we weren't at our best terms but those long nights of talking and making jokes about being on space were the best.

you were mad that i was working with raven to get us home and you broke my heart.

but i never once stopped loving you.

i should have noticed that you were so sad. 

but goddamn it, john. you didn't need to be a hero like you here on earth. 

because you were always my hero.

emori.