This is fkn disgusting. Feelings haven't changed but perspective has and I hate how grossly cringe everything I've said previously is. Honestly feeling more shittier than ever but ha that's life lmao 18 and I want to jump off a bridge because this whole "omg wattpad perfect outlet to vent" is so cringingly cringe I'm literally kinda grossed out at myself for even starting this.
Few things have changed 15 year old cringe bucket S. You like kpop now. You like kpop waaayyy too much and it's kinda concerning. This links to the fact that I'm almost certain you're a walking ball of anxiety with a smidge of depression and is using these kpopping boys to hide the fact that you're lonely asf and pretty sad. Obsessing over people you will literally never meet nor have a chance with is something you're kinda good at so I guess that didn't change. You're fatter as well so there's that. Also falling behind in literally all of your classes. Also also falling behind on your university application and scholarship ones as well. Also you're poor and always hungry which is why you're poor. Also you've resorted to returning to wattpad again to write more shit. Also you're a lot more angrier and bitchy in general which is a tad weird but who gives a fuck. Watch future S get depressed enough again to comeback on wattpad and write more stupid shit. Unless she's genuinely happy, then she'd probably only reread this shit to either laugh, cringe or reflect on how gross her younger self was. Self deprecating levels are through the roof yay!
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2:40am
YOU ARE READING
Am I Okay?
Non-FictionThis isn't really a book. I just feel like I need a way to express my feelings without having to talk to anyone about them.
