Suicidal Love

Chapter 3

Flashback 12 year old Sam

-Sam's first time-

-Sam's POV All chapter-
(More like 3rd for actions)

"Samuel!" "SAMUEL COME HERE NOW!" *Sam walks to his dad's room* "Y-Yes D-Dad?" "Come here boy." *walks and sits on his dad's bed* "Y-Yes D-Dad?" *His dad grabs him and puts him on his lap* "D-D-Dad?" "Grind Samuel." "G-Grind?" "Do this." *His dad grabs Sam's hips and moves him back and forth against his lap* "? B-But D-Dad?" *His dad moans* "D-Dad?" "Shut up~ go faster.." *Sam grinds faster worried* *His dad moans* "D-Dad..." *His dad slaps him* "Just shut up!" *His dad pushes him down on the bed* *Sam trys to get up and squirms* *His dad pins his wrists to the bed and squeezes his wrists* *Sam gasps* "D-Don't d-do t-that...." "Why shouldn't I?" *His dad lets go and rolls up Sam's sleeves* *Sam turns his head away* "You cut yourself Samuel?" "...." *His dad squeezes Sam's wrists* *Sam gasps* "Answer me." "Y-Yea. So w-what. W-Whats it t-to you." "Nothing really. I don't care. But if your gonna hurt yourself you must like to be hit." "N-No thats n-no-" -SMACK- "Do you like that, you like the pain dont you!" *His dad smacks him* *Sam whimpers* "s-s-stop d-dad..." *Sam says weakly* *His dad grabs a knife* "If you like to cut so much, let me cut you." *Sam's dad cuts Sam's wrists* *Sam bites his lip* *Sam makes a small noise* "You like that Don't you." "I-I... N-No, U-Uhm.." *His dad laughs* "Thats kinky for a 12 year old." *His dad cuts deeper on Sams wrists* *Sam closes his eyes and moans quietly* Sam not understanding what that was. *Sam's dad laughs* "Your a kinky one. That moan was cute." *Sam looks away* "Samuel~ you're gonna be hurt more then just by cuts~" "D-d-dad..." *Sam's dad takes off all Sams clothes but his boxers* "Cutie~ Your a skinny boy but cuts everywhere." *Sam looks at his dad* "D-Dad..." *His dad takes off everything but his boxers* *Sams dad cuts him on the stomach and thighs* *Sam moans quietly* "S-stop!" *Sams dad sucks on Sam's neck* *Sam moans&cries* "S-Stop!!" "I know you like it, Your a boy, Hormones are everywhere when your 12." "N-No D-Dad." *His dad gives him a hickey* "D-dad!! I c-can't be s-seen with t-that!" "Why not?" "I-I'm 12, It's a-a hickey, T-The k-kids, s-school..." "Whatever Samuel." *Sams dad grinds against Sam* *Sam looks away crying and moaning* "D-Dad P-Please... S-Stop..." -SMACK- "Stop protesting Samuel. You'll learn to like it or you'll be crying the rest of your life." Samuel looks at his dad and thinks about what he said "Now for real fun." "W-wait w-what?" *Sams dad takes off both of their boxers* "D-Dad??" *His dad starts to stroke Sam* *Sam moans* "D..." Sam stops himself remebering what his dad had said. He decides to let it happen instead of cry. *His dad smiles* "Your finally understanding. Good boy." *Sam smiles dorkily trying to be happy* *Sam nods* *His dad strokes faster* *Sam moans and bites his hand to cry* "Don't cry Samuel. Be a big boy, You'll learn to like it." *Sam nods and looks to the side* "S-Sorry.." *Sam mumbles into his hand* *Sams dad uncovers his mouth and sticks 3 fingers in his mouth* "Suck." *Sam sucks on the fingers disgusted with himself* "Want me to cut you to feel better?" *Sam nods* *His dad pulls his fingers away grabs his knife with the opposite hand and cuts into Sam's wrist deeply* *Sam moans softly* Sam's wrists bleeding keeps him sane from whats happening now "Good. Now your calm enough. Samuel this is going to hurt so if you need to scream either dont or bite your hand. Understand?" *Sam nods afraid* *His dad lays him down on the bed* "Are you gonna squirm or do you not want to be pinned?" *Sam shrugs* *His dad pushes a finger into Sam* *Sam gasps and tears up* "Shhh. Its okay, Don't cry Samuel." *Sam bites his lip and nods* *His dad thrusts the finger slowly* ( A/N: Oof, Just cause hes going gentle does not mean that Sam likes this of course. And yes this isn't a good thing. I'm not promoting incest or rape. ) *Sam whimpers* *His dad adds another finger and thrusts them fast* *Sam moans and whimpers quietly* "It'll be over soon enough, Then the real fun begins." *His dad adds the last finger and thrusts them all fast and deeper* *Sam cries silently and whimpers* "Samuel." *Sam looks at his dad* "Don't cry." *Sam nods and looks away* *His dad pulls out his fingers and Pulls Sams hips closer to himself* *Sam feels a sudden loss for the feeling* Thoughts: Eww do i like this??... *Sam cringes at the thought* *His dad pushes all the way into Sam* *Sam gasps as he tears up* "Shh..." *His dad kisses Sams neck* "You'll be okay." *Sam moans disgusted&nods* *His dad starts thrusting into Sam* *Sam whimpers and cries* *His dad thrusts faster* *Sam moans and cries into his hand* *His dad moans* *His dad kisses Sams eyes* "I want to hear your noises~ Don't cry." *His dad pins his arms* "d...dad..." "No Samuel, Just take it." *His dad thrusts harder* "A-Ahh! N..." *Sam whimpers and gasps and moans* *His dad purrs* "That was cute. A girl will really love you one day." "...." *His dad thrusts deeper and harder until he moans out and cums inside Sam* *Sam cries&moans* "Good boy~ I went easy this time." "T-This T-Time?" "The reason i was gentle about it was because i didn't want you to bleed out before we finished. I didn't want you to die before the future." "W-What do y-you mean??" "It means I'm gonna be doing this for years to come Samuel." *Sam whimpers* "Until you move out. Your gonna have this kind of fun." *His dad pulls out gets dressed and throws Sam on the ground* "You can leave now." *Sam nods gets dressed and runs to his room and slams the door* *Sam cries the night away*

-END OF FLASHBACK-