Suicidal Love

Chapter 5

William's POV

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Recap-(This is the only part in which it has Sam's personal POV.)"Samuel Morgan Adler. Even tho we've only known each other 5 months so far, I have fallen in love with you. I realize I want to grow old with you and marry you one day. Sam will you be my boyfriend?" William asks staring into my eyes. I squeal and twirl around with him. I say Yes and kiss him. He kisses me back... Best day..
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I wake up and stare up at the sky. You can see the light blue tint of the sky as the sun starts to rise. I realize we fell asleep on the mountain last night and sit up looking down at a peaceful looking Sam smiling as he lays on me. He's still sleeping and I'm glad we had a blanket with us, It was random but I'm thankful he didn't go cold last night. I asked him to be my boyfriend.. He said yes. I know his life must have been horrible with his dad, I want to know everything about his past. I will love him no matter what his past is, I can only hope for our future. He will be happier not being with his dad. I feel Sam start to move a little his head on my lap. I rub his hair as he opens his eyes slowly. He looks up at me and smiles. I smile back. I think I may have saved him by meeting him. "Good Morning." He said smiling. "Good Morning Love, Did you sleep well?" I always want to make sure he doesn't have nightmares. He had a rough life. I feel as thou my life seems too perfect. My parents are still together, I'm getting mostly A's in school, I'm one of the best football players... what if it's too perfect? My parents accepted I was gay saying they knew. Maybe my life has been so perfect I'm almost never sad. I'm sad when Sam is sad and all that. I've never really had a depressed day because I'm always happy especially with Sam. I have my quirks, I'm getting braces this year and I have glasses. But those aren't bad. I'm not saying I wish I had a worse life. I just wish I knew more pain so I can comfort Sam. I hate when he cuts but he has made me hurt and it felt, good.. But that doesn't mean I want him to hurt himself. Should I hate myself for having such a good life? Or love it, Sam just made it more amazing. "William! Hellooo?" Sam yells for the 5th time. Shit I didn't even realize I was dozed off in my thoughts and peck his nose and I can see a light blush across his face. I smile and pull him to lay with me and cuddle. "When should we go home?" I ask not realizing it cause I'd love to stay here. "Hm. You need breakfast. So soon." He says giggling. Sometimes my hormones make me look at him with lust and make it I just want to pound him. But at the same time my normal self wants to make sure he stays safe and protected and lives. I blush and kiss him gently as he kisses back. It lasts a minute but we pull away. We smile at each other and get up. I fold the blanket and carry it as we walk home. I'm glad to say it's our home. He lives with me and my parents. He can always come to me if he's scared. Or stuck. Or hurt. As we get home my Parents greet us. It's 7am so It's pretty normal to think my parents would be awake. "How was your night dears?" My mother asks smiling at as. "It was lovely." Sam says hugging my parents. "Thank you for letting me live here." I smile and tear up as he says that, You can kinda hear the sadness he had from living there. "Goodness." My dad laughs. "Of course you can live here. I'm glad you make my son happy." He says smiling at me. I smile and Sam stops hugging them. Sam comes to me and hugs me. I hug him back as my parents smile at as. We stop hugging and we all go inside to eat breakfast. Breakfast was pancakes, eggs and bacon. It looked delicious. As we sat down to eat I saw a frown on Sam's face as he picked at his food. If you didn't know this, Sam is kinda a sprawny boy. He's skinny and not fat. He has some abs which are hot considering his size. You can fit your hand around his wrist unless your like under 12. Little babies and toddlers couldn't put their hand around his wrist but maybe 12 and up. He's 16 and although he is happy with me I think he has anorexia. What that is is a eating disorder. He seems to frown whenever He's near food and hates asking for food. When we eat he barely does. I'm not sure if he does but all the signs point to it. I might ask him about it later i realize he's staring at me with a smile and I smile at him. I can space off easily. He starts to eat the bacon slowly kinda choking a little bit but drinking water to help. I frown hoping he doesn't hurt himself from the bacon. He sighs and eats the rest choking a few times in between bites. I always take a bite when he does and after he swallows I watch him to make sure he doesn't choke to death. We finish and Sam helps clear the table as my mom washes the dishes. I take Sam to his room and close the door. He looks at me as I take off his shirt. "Sam.." He looks at me worried as I say his name softly. "Y-yes?" He stutters covering his chest with his arms. He must be afraid. "I won't hurt you don't be afraid." I say kissing his nose. He blushes light pink as I hold him close. "Uh.. D-do you have a-anorexia?" I stutter not trying to hurt his feelings. I feel him tense up and I kiss his head. "I don't mean to be mean I'm sorry don't hate me." I say to him as he just boops me. "Silly i could never hate you... But yes.. I-I d-do.." He says his smile fading. "Will you let me help you?" I ask him seeing the pained expression on his face. "I won't hurt you I swear I don't hate you at all Sam." I say trying to make him smile. He smiles at me and kisses my cheek. I blush as he giggles. "I'm gonna take you shopping for clothes today." I say as I grab out some black sweats and a black hoodie for him. He smiles and hugs me. "Don't spoil me okay?" He laughs. I laugh and kiss him softly on the lips. He kisses back and before we get any more heated my dad knocks. I know it's him cause his knock is different then my moms. We pull away and he opens the door. "What are you boys planning to-do today?" He asks seeing my annoyed look for him interrupting. "I'm gonna take him shopping and maybe watch a movie in my room." "Okay. Well today we have dinner all together." He says knowing we might try to eat somewhere else. "I know." He leaves and I turn around to let Sam get dressed. After longer than five minutes I start to get confused until I see him staring at me. He's only in his boxers.. "Sam?" He jumps on me sucking on my neck kissing it making me moan. "Can we do something else sometime~?" He asks sounding horny. I feel his bulge against me and giggle. "Maybe next week. Gotta give you time. He pouts but gets dressed. I go to my room with him and get into a Green day shirt and some sweats. We both wear black high tops and leave for the store. I drive the car which is a black jeep. Cause swag. And go to the mall. He gets so many black things I can't even see the gay rainbow shit that is across the hall. He gets panic! at the disco shirts, black skinny jeans with holes in them, black beanies, and a black pin that legit says he cuts himself but loves it. Damn that pin has a lot to say. Then we go to the gay shit and I get us rainbow beanies, two gay flags, Pins that say boyfriend&boyfriend, gay pins, and I got a backpack that was all black BUT it said in rainbow letters 'Fuck off I'm gay and taken bitch.' Its great. I got two. One for both of us. Sam laughed about it and I blush at his laugh. We head home and show my parents the gay backpacks. My mom laughs and my dad slow claps shaking his head as if he's disappointed but he's holding in a laugh. We laugh and run upstairs each putting our stuff in our rooms then both crashing on my bed snuggling and watching gay movies. We end of falling asleep. I don't know about him but my dumb dream was about us grinding on each other. I get a bulge and moan in my sleep. As I open my eyes it's 8:30pm and Sam is on me kissing my neck. "S-Sam?" I kinda of ask tiredly and moan. "Hey~" I blush at the confidence he's giving off right now. Someone knocks and he groans annoyed. He turns facing the door but grinds his ass on ny bulge making me moan as he gets the door. "Dinner is ready boys." My dad says laughing as he can see my flustered face. I look away annoyed that he interrupted but annoyed at him laughing at me. "Okaaay we're coming." I say as Sam closes the door. "I got some pitch black pjs for me from my room while you slept." Sam says. His outfit sure turns me on. His pjs are for sure pitch black. He's wearing this pure black hoodie with the hood up but there's like buttons for top two and they're undone showing like his chest not fully tho and the rest doesn't have buttons so it's covered. Pitch black sweat pants and he's wearing rainbow slippers, My present. I smile at him and he smiles back. "Get dressed. You can drool later." He laughs as I drool at him. I blush and get on a rainbow t-shirt that says "I'm with gay." and some half rainbow half black sweats and black slippers with rainbow edges. We go downstairs for dinner and sit down. Dinner is roasted chicken, mashed potatoes and gravy and Broccoli. It was delicious and i notice Sam ate all of it while choking a little with the chicken. He smiles as he finishes and I smile back. His smile is adorable. "Good Job." I whisper to him as he smiles and kinda tears up. "Want a award later?" I ask trying to make him excited and not cry. He looks at me curiously and I smirk. He blushes and nods. Dinner stops and we clean the table and the dishes. While I do the dishes my parents are in they're room and Sam comes up behind me and grinds his bone(r Haha ) agaisnt my but and I moan finishing the dishes. I turn around and pin him to the wall and start sucking on his neck. He moans and before I could take his shirt off someone walked in the kitchen and laughed. "W-what!" I hated being interrupted. "Go to your room dear." My mom says holding in a laugh as we both run upstairs. We have a room on the 3rd floor while Mom and Dad's were on the the 1st. I push him on my bed and grind on him. We both moan as he takes my shirt off. I take off his pants and rub him through his boxers, kissing his thighs. He moans. "Don't teassseee meeee!~" I laugh as I take off his boxers. I lick his slit slowly as he groans painfully. "William pleaassee.." I nibble on his slit and he grabs my hair. "Ugh, more~.." He groans. I start to suck him off as he pushes my head down more. I moan making him moan louder. "Ahh~ yes.." He moans. I deepthroat him and hum, sending vibrations through him. He moans loudly and cums. I stop and swallow while looking up at him. I put his boxers back on and smirk at Sam. He blushes and whines that I stopped. "I'm not going to far My love, You still need time. Better to take it slow with how much has happened to you..." I say sadly rubbing my arm. He kisses my cheek and smiles happily at me. "You've made me the happiest I've ever been in my entire life William. Never leave me." He says kissing my cheek. I blush and tear up. I hug him and cry. "Aw don't cry, Why are you crying?" He says holding me close. "Because your life must've been horrible... I can't imagine what would've happened if we never met. I can't and won't imagine what would've happened." I say as he wipes my tears away. I kiss him softly. He kisses back just as soft. It's 9pm on a Friday. No school tomorrow. But he doesn't have to go for a month and if he wants me to I don't either. We pull away and cuddle each other. Eventually falling asleep.

A/N: Hey! This story is f**ked up I know. Sorry for that👏. 2328 words not including this Author note. I wanna say sorry if theres errors, I try my best but I love writing so when I type alot I make a few errors but don't notice. These chapters will always be 1,000 words minimum. That means the least amount of words will be 1,000 words. I'll always have 1,000+ words a chapter. Thanks for reading, comment if you want to give criticism or suggestions or a nice comment(😂), and vote if you would like ( I would like you to but your not obligated to😛 ), and uh, Yea, share if you want(?), and Yea, Thanks for reading(😂)!

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