Scribbles of the Heart

Sober Poem

Things used to be so easy; 

We had a few laughs,

Few sweet moments, 

A lot of crazy stuff. 

You enjoyed yourself 

I enjoyed your company. 

We were a perfect match – 

At least, that's what we realized the first day we met. 

We used to have a few drinks somewhere 

Or a few kisses at the park, 

Sometimes a few road trips 

And a lot of partying all night. 

We managed to get to the hotel 

Stoned and drunk. 

You sang songs that were lullabies to me 

Yet, you were always the first one to fall asleep.

I’d get turned on by your snore 

And it would go a long way from there. 

At first I thought I was in love with you – 

You being the first one to fuck me in a hotel room 

But I realized the attraction was purely physical. 

What we had was not a romantic relationship. 

It was only friendship 

With benefits. 

One time, 

After a long night of booze and weed, 

You asked me to marry you. 

If only I could speak clearly, 

I would have said yes. 

If only I hadn't passed out from too much beer, 

I would have taken you to a priest 

Or judge 

Or the pope 

Or the president 

To wed us for eternity. 

Right then and there. 

Or there and then. 

Anyway, 

While I’m sober, 

I think about what you really mean to me. 

You are the joy of my physicality. 

You are the one who fulfills my cravings. 

You are the only one who knows who I really am, 

The wild me. 

Yet with you,

My soul is empty. 

And so before another temporary insanity, 

Before another booze session, 

Before another detachment from reality, 

I’m gonna say what's truly on my sane mind – 

I’m not your girl anymore. 

We are over.