Queen of Exile

The Verdict

I sat on my bed, almost not hearing the servant announce supper. At that word, my stomach lurched and growled at me for ignoring it. I waved the servant off with a wave of my hand. And went back to praying,

Oh God, I am unworthy of your goodness, but you have been faithful to me, you have given me Mordecai, without whom, I would not be here. I ask Thee to show me a way out of this disaster, I do not deserve it, but please, work through me, and save your people. Please, be with me today, and if I die, then I will be in your arms forever, but if I survive, give me the words to say, though may it not be my will, but thy will alone. Amen.

  I breathed in, and I dont know if it was my imagination, or if the air really was sweeter, and filled me with a sense of hope.  I stood up, I took a deep breath, and lifted up my chin determinedly.  I walked out the door, and down the stairs.  I set my jaw and forced a smile before i walked into the dining hall.  I sat at my usual spot as the servants stared at me.  it's no wonder, you havn't been out of your chambers for three nights straight, they are probably surprised that you finally showed up.  

  I sighed and smiled at the servants, and they went to work.  They brought me my favorite bread, and sliced the warm crust for me.  I did my best to devour the food, while still being a lady, but it was hard.  

  After I finished, I went back up to my chambers, and changed into a suitable dress.  I walked back out, adn through the halls.  I stopped at a door I had only been through once.  When I had gone in there, before I was Queen.  I took a deep breath.  and walked up to the door.  The guards let me pass.  They looked at me strangly though, they probably knew I had not been called, and were woundering what was so urgent that I could kill myself to let the king know.  

You see, you werent allowed to be in the Kings presence without being called.  If you were as un-lucky as to walk into the King's presence while he wasnt in a merciful mood?  Well, lets just say you most likley wouldnt be able to say goodbye to your family.  But, if the King hands his septer toward you, you will be spared.  Though that rareley happened.  I was hoping he would be merciful today, as I kept asking God to fulfil.  But, if i died, I would be in eternal paradise, so I guess it would be fine eirther way.  

  I took a deep breath, hoping it wasnt my last, and walked through the door and int the throne room, awaiting the King's verdict.