Over My Dead Body

Chapter 6- Pain

*trigger warning*
*rape mentioned*
-1 month later--Y/N's POV-

The boys and I were at the local library researching for some new cases. I was getting bored because we had been researching for hours on end and we still hadn't found anything yet. I decided I wanted to get out of the house so I told them boys I was heading out to the bar in town.

"Hey I'm getting bored so I'mma head out to the bar. Oh and I'm taking baby." I told them.

"Okay see ya later." They replied in sync not really do using on what I was saying.

I walked out of the library and headed down to the bar. When I got inside the building wreaked of alcohol and cheap perfume from the women dressed in trashy clothing just looking to get laid tonight. I sat on one side of the bar trying to stay away from any guy just trying to get lucky tonight. I ordered myself a whiskey which surprised the bar tender. As I was finishing my second whiskey some guy who smelt like bad cologne and way to much alcohol for one person came up and sat in the bar stool beside me.

"Hey gorgeous, I'm Damien" 'Damien' slurred as he tried to begin flirting with me.

"I'm not interested." I replied not caring how rude I sounded.

"Well 'not interested' how about you hop in my car and come back to my place with me. Y'know I can't make you feel real good." He winked at me while placing his hand on my thigh.

"No I'm good. I should really be getting back to my place, my boyfriend is probably freaking out worrying about me." I lie while getting up to leave.

As I pay for my drinks and start walking out the door I decide it's best that I text Dean and tell him that I'm on my way back to the motel

Y/N- 'hey I'm only my way back so I'll be there in about 20 minutes'

I don't wait for a response because I know that him and Sam might still be researching so I don't really expect one.

As I get close to baby I could hear footsteps coming up behind me. Suddenly I feel a hand wrap around my tiny waist and one hand cover my mouth.

"MMMMHMMHM!" I tried screaming but it just came out mumbled because of whoever's hand was over my mouth.

"Shhh sweatheart. Don't worry I'm gonna make you feel really good soon." Damien said. Of course it just had to be fucking Damien. He dragged me into the alleyway beside the bar we were in. This has happened to me before, before the first time I started hurting myself. It was actually one of the reasons I started hurting myself... I was raped. The boys didn't know that part of my life, nobody knew but me and the person who raped me.

"You're such a pretty little girl" Damien said as he pushed me against the brick wall of the alleyway slowly​ grinding against me.

I tried to fight back, I tried to scream for help, I tried and tried and tried, but nothing worked, no one heard my cries for help when I needed them to. I hated it so much. I felt so useless, so worthless.

*trigger warning starts here*

As he slipped his hand down and started grabbing and massaging my butt he gripped my wrist with his free hand and started slowly making my hand palm his hard member through his pants. He took his hand that was massaging my butt and wrapped it around my body, dipping his hand in the front of my pants. He started rubbing my womanhood and I let out an involuntary moan.

"You like that aye?" Damien asked.

"N-" I began.

I wanted to say no but I was cut of by Damien slipping a finger inside of me. I felt him starting grinding his member on my ass faster then he was before. All of a sudden he stopped. Damien quickly turned me over and started fondling with my breasts. He tore off my pants and pulled his down just enough so he could quickly pull them back up later.

I tried to run away but it was no use. Damien grabbed me by the shoulders and slammed me up against the hard brick wall again. He kept one hand holding me down while the other was used to put a condom on.

"You ready to feel good, sweetheart?" Damien asked as he picked me up making me wrap my legs around his waist.

"Please don't do this. I don't want to do this! LET ME GO PLEASE!!" I just wanted to go and be in Dean's comforting arms while he told me everything was gonna be alright.

"SHUT UP!" Damien yelled as he slapped me.

He carefully directed his member closer and closer to my entrance, and then slamming into me not even giving me time to adjust. He just kept thrusting into me over and over and over again. I was trying to not cry but I ended up failing on that task. I started crying because I was scared and in pain. Damiens thrusts became sloppier and sloppier as he got closer to finishing. I was no where near finishing which I was happy about because I didn't want Damien having the satisfaction of giving me pleasure.

After Damien finished he put me down and threw my torn pants on me so I could put them on somehow while he just slipped on an buttoned up.

"Hope to see you again sometime." He said before walking away.

-2 hours later-

As I sat there crying while curled in a ball up against the wall of the alleyway I saw two familiar figures running towards me out if the corner of my eye but I paid no attention to them, I couldn't. I could only focus on what had happened just a couple hours before.

Suddenly the two figures were knelt down in front of me. They were speaking but I couldn't hear it, I could see their lips moving but I wasn't focused on them. I was then in the familiar comforting arms I'd whished to be in earlier as I cried even harder.

"Y/N? I don't know if you want to right now, but can you tell us what happened tonight? Please." I looked up at the person who was talking to see both Sam and Dean looking at me while I was wrapped in Dean's arms, as to which I quickly got out of.

I sat up against the brick wall of the alleyway and started crying again.

"It h-happened to me a-ag-again." I said trying to calm myself down.

"What happened to you again?" Sam asked.

"Nothing. Can we just go home?" I said. Quickly making the decision to not tell the boys.

"Yeah of course." Sam said

As we walked to baby and got in I realized that the boys had to walk to get to me. I sat in the back seat with Dean driving and Sam in the passenger seat like normal. As I there I think about what happened and what I should do about it or if I should tell the boys. I think about it and in the end I figure out what I k ow I have to do.

~A/N~ I am working on a new book atm with original characters. It's not published yet but just know I'm working on it and look out for it in the hopefully near future.