Over My Dead Body

Chapter 8- I Don't Need Your Help

*trigger warning*
*attempted suicide*

~DEAN'S POV~

"OH MY GOD!!" I yelled as I ran to Y/N's room with Sam following behind me and started banging on the door yelling her name, that when I heard it, those horrible sounds...

Three gunshots and her scream...

Sam and I finally got the door open and ran in. When we ran in all I was thinking of was Y/N. I looked over and saw her tear streaked face and bloody body sprawled out on the floor, she was barely breathing and her eyes looked like they were getting heavier and heavier. I looked at Sam because we both know that Y/N has been taught and has known for a long time that the way to make sure something is dead is to shoot it in the head or the heart, not the stomach, and we realized that there still might be a chance for us to save her. I ran to Y/N and heard a sentence that broke my heart.

"Let me die, please..." Y/N slowly whispered into the empty air surrounding the three of us.

"Sam go get everything we need to help her, I'll move her onto her bed so she's the least amount uncomfortable as possible for what we're about to do" I ordered Sam and carried Y/N to her bed. Sam just stood there blankly staring at the puddle of blood on the floor.

"Sam, NOW!" I said in a raised voice to get his attention so he could get what we needed. He quickly lifted his head as he snapped out of it and ran to get the materials.

I looked at Y/N thinking to myself asking why such a beautiful girl would do this to herself and why she would treat herself any less than she should be treated. She is so beautiful and so sweet to everyone around her, why can't she see that herself?

Sam came back after about five minutes with gauze, hydrogen peroxide, tissues and a sock to stuff if Y/N's mouth to keep her from screaming so loud because lord knows damn well neither of us will be able to bare hearing that scream of pure pain mixed with anger and sadness towards the world. I grab a pillow off of Y/N's bed and put it underneath her head and tell her that everything is gonna be okay. She looks up at me with those big beautiful E/C eyes and whispers something but neither of us could hear it.

~Y/N'S POV~
(A/N this POV isn't gonna include all of the dialogue that just happened because ya human's way to damn lazy to rewrite all that shit😂)

I looked up at Dean and whispered
"I don't need help, let me go..." But he didn't hear me, I looked at Sam and noticed that he wasn't even paying attention to my voice he was only paying attention to the bullet wound and all of the wounds I created on my body...

I'm disgusted that I let it get to this point, I shouldn't have stuck around this long and should've left earlier when they wouldn't have noticed. Dean looks like he's trying to hold back tears but it's not working, Sam's just full on bawling at this point and I feel terrible that I'm making them feel this way...

I learned so long ago that if you truly wanted something dead then shoot it in the heart or head, I should've listened to what I was taught, then they wouldn't be spending so much time and wasting so many thing's thst they meed for themselves on me.

(A/N I'm skipping all of the sewing this and all of the cleaning shit cause in my opinion it's not as important as the dialogue between the three of them but long story short there was a lot of screaming and crying and she ended up passing out)

~ 4 hour's later (still Y/N'S POV)~

I felt my eye's shoot open and my body was swarmed with overwhelming pain and a burning sensation coming from my arm's, legs, and stomach.

"Holy shit, it feels like I just got thrown into the ground from a moving plane that was high as all hell in the sky!" I coughed after I said with a raspy voice.

I calmed down a little bit but everything still hurt, I finally fully lied down and opened my eye's and looked around. I saw Dean standing in the corner of my room and Sam sitting on the side of my bed holding my hand saying everything is gonna be alright while both if them looked like they had been crying for hour's on end. Sam looked at Dean and told him I'm alright and that evetything will be okay and then Dean being Dean stormed out of my room while starting to bawl his eye's out. The next thing Sam and I heard from my room was Dean punch his wall in the room beside mine. I looked at Sam and asked why I feel so shitty and what was wrong with Dean.

"Y/N... You tried to kill yourself, we heard a gunshot and pushed your door down cause it was locked and then next thing we saw was you laying on your floor with a bullet wound in your stomach, cuts all over your body, and blood surrounding you... The reason Dean is acting like this is because he's worried he just doesn't know how to show it." Sam said, tearing up while thinking about what he saw just hour's prior to this moment.

As soon as Sam stopped talking the memories started flooding in and I started bawling my eye's out, Dean came back with a wrapped up bloody fist. He asked sam to get out of the way and sat me up and just held me while I cried...

~A/N~ Hellloooooo. So Ik that I left on a cliffhanger and Ik that a while ago I said I would update soon (I deleted that A/N) I'm sorry if anybody wanted to continue reading this, Ik these are excuses but I have a lot of shit going on. School is kicking my ass like there's no tomorrow, my birthday is in 7 day's, I'm going to Cuba with my boyfriend and his family for 10 days in November and then when we get back it makes it a year since my poppy died so I've been stressing a lot lately. I still don't have everything I need for Cuba and we leave November 6th, I'm failing all of my classes this semester so far and have multiple assignments late. There's family shit happening which I'm not gonna go into detail with. There's a bunch of drama that will most likely eventually end up having to go to my Vp's or my guidance counselor at school so I'm gonna apologize in advance, up until second semester starts(which is in January) I will try to work on chapters and try to update as much as possible, but I'm not gonna promise anything.  Also, the next chapter will be skipped ahead a few month's so it won't be right after she attempted. I love you guy's, thank you for sticking around and waiting for this chapter, I'm sorry for the long ass A/N. I'll talk to yous in the next chapter, byeeeee❤❤❤