Necessary Evil

13

I was happy for Craig and TJ. Happy that they didn't have to go through the pain of losing the other. But, I couldn't help but feel jealous and angry that almost everyone I loved had been taken from me.

I made my way to TJ's side, smiling as I looked down at him "TJ, it's good to see you awake. You had us worried, bro." I said.

TJ sighed "Are they...." His voice trailed off and I nodded.

"Yeah, they are all gone. That's how we were able to get you here." I said softly.

"Don't you ever do that to me again" Craig said, leaning in to press a quick kiss to the other mans lips.

TJ nodded. "I won't....Josh, I'm so sorry." He started "I'm so sorry this happened. Sorry it happened to you. I tried to stop them, but I couldn't."

I shook my head, grabbing his hand "Hey, you did more than you think. You had the shit beat out of you and could have lost your life. There was nothing else you could do. I'm glad they didn't kill you."

TJ sighed, turning his head as a single tear slipped down his cheek.

I opened my mouth to speak when the alarms from the bed across from us started going off.

We stepped back, giving the doctors and nurses room.

Once they pulled back the curtain, that's when I saw him.

"RYAN!" I screamed, wasting no time in running to his side.

There were so many tubes and wires covering his body I was almost scared to touch him.

"What's going on?" I asked, taking his hand in mine.

"Are you family?" One of the nurses asked.

"He's my boyfriend." I said without even thinking about it.

"He was pronounced dead at the scene. The paramedics kept working on him and managed to get him back. He's not getting any better yet though. We'd hoped to see at least a little improvement by now."

I nodded, tears streaming down my cheeks. I had Ryan back. He hadn't died. But, now I might still lose him. No. This wasn't happening.

"Ryan" I started "Please wake up, baby. It's me. It's Josh. I love you Ryan. I always have and I always will. I'm sorry about the past. I can't live without you. Please, please don't leave me." I begged.

The doctor got his vitals back under control after giving him something in his IV.

"If you need anything, feel free to press the call button over there." He said. 

I nodded, pulling a chair up next to Ryan's bed. I grabbed his hand again, bringing it to my lips. I pressed a kiss over each knuckle, tears streaming down my face. 

"He's alive?" TJ said, trying his best to sit up,against Craig who was trying to keep him lying down. 

I nodded. "He's got to wake up." I began, keeping my eyes locked on the man in the bed "I can't imagine losing him now. I just got him back." 

He was absolutely perfect. Even with all the tubes and wires, he still managed to take my breath away. 

"I love you, Ryan. Love you so fucking much." I repeated. 

I've always heard when people are in a coma, they can hear people talking to them. I wanted, I needed to make sure he knew I was here. That I loved him and wasn't going anywhere. 

Technically, they were supposed to make Craig and I leave. But, thankfully all the nurses were nice and decided to let us stay. 

I glanced at my phone 10:45. Ryan's condition hadn't changed. 

I sighed and looked over at the bed across from us. Craig had crawled on the bed with TJ and they were both sound asleep. 

I couldn't help but smile. Those two really were meant for each other. 

I was beginning to get tired myself, but was scared if I did something would happen. Something bad would happen and although I was there, I wouldn't be. 

I yawned softly, keeping my hand in Ryan's.

I shook my head and decided to just rest my head on the bed. I wasn't going to sleep, but there was no reason I couldn't lay my head down for a few minutes, right?
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Ryan's P.O.V

I honestly thought when you die you don't feel any pain. So, why was I hurting all over? I was confused because I didn't seem to be in heaven. At least not now. 

I opened my eyes slowly. Nope. Definitely not heaven. I was in a hospital room. Craig and TJ were in the bed across from mine. Who was holding my hand? 

I looked down slowly, it was Josh. 

Wait, it was Josh. 

I took a deep breath, giving his hand a light squeeze. His eyes fluttered open and he looked over at me slowly.

"Ryan?! Oh my god! You're awake." He yelled, tears streaming down his cheeks. 

"Hey, Josh." I started, my voice low.

I guess he could tell I was confused, he smiled, running his hand across my forehead "You're in the hospital. They pronounced you dead at the scene, but they kept working on you and managed to get your heart started again..." He said. 

I nodded. I couldn't stop the tears when I thought about the others. 

Josh nodded, carefully taking a seat on the bed next to me. He wrapped his arms around me and we both cried. It was so unreal he was next to me. It felt good to be back in his arms. 

"I love you, Ryan. I never stopped. I will always love you." He cried. 

I smiled softly and pressed my lips against his, mumbling against them "I love you too.."