Disconnected (Luke Hemmings Fanfiction)

Chapter 2

I dropped my bag straight to the floor and picked up the piece of paper, it was neatly folded in half. I slumped myself on my bed with my head against the headboard and my knees pulled up against my body, as if I was scared, which in all honestly I was, I was terrified, because I didn't know what the letter would say, would it be a goodbye letter? Or just maybe a stupid list of things to do in the house while he was gone? I seriously didn't know. I was shaking at this point. But I managed to open it. Here's what it said:

Dear Laura,

Erm, hi. So when you read this letter I'm going to be travelling half way around the world, and I'm not going to be back for six months wow. But I promise I'll be thinking of you. I'm not really sure why I wrote this letter, but basically I just wanted to tell you how much you meant to me, which is a lot. Honestly, you're my world, and I truly don't know what I'd do without you. I'm so lucky to have you as my best friend it's unreal. And I know you Laura, so I know what you're thinking, and you're thinking that I'm going to forget about you, or stop talking to you or whatever. But I promise you, with all my heart I'm not, and I'm never going to. You've been my best friend since I was born and you're always going to be that. And I know deep inside somewhere you know that too. I just wanted to tell you how amazing you are to me, because let's be honest; I don't tell you enough, and I know that, and I'm sorry. Also I promise to text you every single day and tell you I love you because you deserve it, you deserve everything you could ever want, and I know one of those things is to have me at home, and I am so sorry that I can't give that to you, but anytime you need me you know I'm just a phone call away, no matter what it is for or what type of day it is, I'm always here, always.

Love from

Your best friend for life and more ;)

Luke x❤️x❤️x

By the time I was mid paragraph, I was already bawling my eyes out, and I wasn't sure whether they were happy or sad tears, happy because he'd written so many nice and wonderful things that meant so much to me, or sad because I couldn't show him how thankful I was. Not just for the letter, but for him. And everything he's done for me.

This letter made me realise I needed to make a change. And fast. I needed to change my life around, I was 19, I didn't have a job, all my clothes were old and tatty because I couldn't be bothered to buy new ones, I was actually getting a bit fat, I'm not surprised as all I did was mope around all day and do nothing. I had no friends whatsoever. And also, all I did was feel sorry for myself and that needed to change. But before all of that, I needed to sort my relationship out with Luke, I needed to tell him how thankful I am for him, and everything he's done. Also I needed to apologise for the bitch I've been these past 19 years.

So I did the only thing that I could do at this point. I sent him a text. (Thank god i changed my contract to worldwide texts, otherwise this would of costed me an absolute fortune!!)

"Hey Luke, I know you won't get this until you get off the plane but, thank you so so much for the letter, it means the absolute world to me and I'm going to treasure it forever ❤️. Anyway, I just wanted to apologise for the way I've acted recently over these past few years since my mum died, you were there for me every step of the way and you've helped me so much, I am so thankful for everything, but most of all I'm thankful for being able to see your smile everyday, and being able to call you my best friend. I'm so proud of you it's unreal and I wish you the best of luck on this tour, and all I want is for you to be happy, which I know you are ❤️ love you more than the world xxxx"

I sent the text and looked what time it was. '10:42' Time for me to go to bed I think! I got out of my bed, put the letter on my bedside table, picked up my pyjamas and went to the bathroom. I had a good look in the mirror. Mmm, I needed to get some new makeup, the stuff that I was wearing today, not good. I looked like some sort of clown freak! All my makeup was just the cheap on sale stuff from Target, tomorrow I NEEDED to get some new things.

I put my hair into a high ponytail just to get it out of my face so I could take my hideous makeup off. I just used some rubbish makeup wipes that actually really hurt my face as I had extremely sensitive skin. (Again, cheap on sale at target). Then after that I took my hair down. My hair, well, don't even get me started. It was in such bad condition and it honestly felt like straw, I absolutely hated going to the hairdressers, so simply, I just never went. My hair was a brown/blonde colour, but there was only the occasional blonde bit at the ends. So, ANOTHER thing I need to get done tomorrow.

I took of my big wooly jumper, (even thought it was summer and about 90 degrees, I know, gross right?) and stepped out of my black skinnies. I put on my koala pyjamas, (that's another thing about me, I'm obsessed with koalas, honestly) and then put my clothes in the wash basket and got into bed. I liked the idea of this whole change thing, I was really excited, so excited that I decided to set myself an alarm! 9:30, not too early, but still a lot better than usual, usual meaning around 1pm when Luke had to literally force me out of bed.

So I went to sleep happy and excited about this change, I felt like I was becoming a new person, which I think I needed.

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So that's the second chapter!!! I hope you love it just as much as I do and don't forget to rate and comment 😘 love ya x