Plain & Simple(One direction)

Chapter 12

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I sat at the kitchen table playing with my Alfredo that Louis had made for me, I just couldn't bring myself to eat right now even though I knew I had to.  Sam hasn't bothered to call me which is weird, because we both lost a friend today and would have though she needed me to comfort her, I know I need her to comfort me.

but I guess I have Liam, Zayn, Niall, and Louis to be here with me. it bugs me that Harry can be with her right now but I cant which brings me to the worst feeling ever, the feeling of Brett's death being my fault.

I know zayn said not to think that but what else is their to think, Brett's gone and Sam won't talk to me.  I don't know what else to do, wait yes I do.

I need to get into Brett's room, he kept this diary hidden in his room I remember that because he told me about it during our date last week.  maybe that has information on this whole situation, something to help me get some closure.

at least its worth a shot, what other option do I have I can't listen to that voice mail again it pains me to much the pain in his voice, the tears the hurt.  it guilts me, because I could have stopped it maybe if I had answered my phone when he called he would still be here right now.

maybe if I hadn't been arguing with my dad he'd still be here to, it seems like everything that has happened, happened because of me did I do something to piss the world off that karma has to bite me in the damn ass all the timuld

am I really that horrible of a person?  I wish someone would just pick up a bat and help me hit all these curve balls that keep flying at my head, is that to much to ask for, a little help in life?

god its just so stupid!  I hate this I hate everything about this, I hate that I can't be angry right now, I hate this pain inside me that won't go away no matter how hard I try, I hate that I want to blame myself for this mess.

I hate myself.

a knock on the door launched me from my thoughts I stood instantly heading for the door, I already knew who it was though but a small piece of me wanted it to be Sam so I could hug her and never let her go.

so I could talk to her about what was invading my thoughts. or so I could just be with her and mourn over our friends death.. I don't think that's going to happen though.

I reached for the door handle and pulled it open, two police officers were standing in front of me.  are they here to arrest me?  do they blame me for Brett's death like Sam does?

because to be totally honest I wouldn't blame them. "Alison?" I nodded my heavy head.  "We need you to answer some questions" the officer said.

answer questions about my now dead friend, about what happened when I got their. yay I'm thrilled!

"OK" was all I could say, I mean what else is there to say?   i stepped to the side letting the two officers walk inside. I hadn't even noticed Liam standing behind me.

"is there some where we could talk?" the second officer which was a girl said. where we could talk, hm. "Living room?" I suggested "sure" the man said.

I pointed towards the living room and turned to liam, "I don't mean to do this to you but will you ask Zayn to accompany me in the living room?" I felt bad when the words left my mouth but Zayn was with me today and I don't wanna break down in front of Liam.

"Alison I can come with you" Liam was clearly hurt because I wanted Zayn not him.  "And I think its sweet but I'm going to break down, and don't want to break down in front of you because I like you Liam." he smiled.

he kissed my forehead. "I need to be there when you break down, because if I wasn't I would be a class A jerk.  Somebody needs to keep you above the water." I couldn't help but laughter at his quirkiness.

Honestly it felt good to laugh, seems like I don't do that much anymore.  I kissed him on the cheek and entwined our fingers  together, I need Liam.  Having him would be better than having Zayn who has dealt with enough of my crap today.

Liam and I walked into the living room together and sat down on the sofa across from the 2 officers. "Alison my names Jamie this is my partner Greg we're her to discuss what happened today with Brett" Jamie said.

I played with the hem of my shirt and avoided eye contact with everyone including Liam. "first of all I would like to offer my condolences" Greg said, not that it means anything.

"so how did you know to get to Brett's house?" Jamie asked.

"I was taking a shower and I guess he had called me but I never heard it and when I did the voice mail had started already.  as I listened I knew something was wrong so I told Peter to call the police and send them their and I ran over" I said quickly my eyes lining with tears.

"can we hear that voice mail?" Greg asked I handed him my phone.

"could you listen to it on your own time its just really hard to hear again right now?" I asked Jamie agreed. "their is no password, and its my one and only voice mail.  you can listen to it and do what ever else with it just return it whenever" I shrugged.

"So tell us, what happened when you got there, I noticed the broken window was that you?" Jamie questioned

"yeah, the door was locked and I couldn't think of another way, and when I got inside I heard crying coming from up stairs and I saw him on the floor" my voice cracked and I started to cry.

Liam wrapped an arm around me to comfort me.  "what was he doing on the floor?" Greg asked. 

"Bleeding"

"where?"

"his wrists and stomach"

"why?"

"why does it matter?" I asked.

"why was he bleeding Alison?" he demanded.  "Because he cut himself!" I yelled standing.

"that's enough questions" Liam said.  "Sir"

"no," I cut in. "that's enough questions, I think u should leave" I said. "Alison" Greg said "that's enough Greg let's go" Jamie said.

they stood grabbed my phone and left with out another word. I dropped onto the couch and rested my head on Liam.

"thank you" I said maybe I did the right thing bringing Liam. I turned my face to liam and kissed him.

before I stood and walked away my stomach beginning to feel sick I quickly rushed to the bathroom and started to puke.

"Ally" Zayn said. and I just continued to puke.  which was weird just feeling sick all the sudden, is it from the stress? it will pass.

Liam passed me a face cloth and I wiped my face, "I just need to go to bed" I said standing I flushed the toilet and made my way up to my room with Liam behind me hopefully he was gonna sleep with me tonight.

I took my jeans off so I was sleeping in underwear and a tee shirt which I didn't really care because it was just Liam with me anyways.

I crawled in bed under the blankets followed by a shirtless liam and cuddled with him as a fell asleep.

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a/n sooooo their sleeping together kissing, pretty sure their dating now!!

and she's puking all the sudden the night after she had intercourse, is she preggers!?!?!?!!!!

who knows!

so I'm proud 2 chapters in one day! Yay!

its 1:00am so I'm going to bed goodnight lovelies :*

much love<3

~Elizabeth11222