Plain & Simple(One direction)

chapter 14

VOTE PLEASE PEOPLE!!

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the church was filled with people, most of them I didn't know.  and The rest I did, I wasn't Brett's best friend so the only family of his I really knew was his mom and dad who were two amazing people. I sat in the front row in between liam and zayn, while Sam sat across she still hasn't said anything to me which really does piss me off I haven't done anything wrong, so i don't see why she's ignoring me.

Liam on the other hand looks kind of pissed off because I won't tell him what's wrong, and I know its not his fault but it still hurts.  and I still don't know what to do about this whole baby situation.

most of the people around me were crying, while the priest said all those nice words that everybody needed to hear at a time like this but I just couldn't cry anymore like all my tears were dried up.

"Brett is in God's hands now, now a few words from Allison James a close friend of Brett's" I took a deep breath and stood up walking to the stage beside me was Brett's closed coffin, it was a little weird.

"Uh, when Mr. and Mrs. Dawson asked me to write a eulogy for Brett I was shocked, and maybe even a little scared I never thought I would have to write another one again after my dad." I looked to the ground then back up everyone's tear soaked eyes starring back at me.

"It was to soon, not to have to write another eulogy but to lose Brett, just a few more months and it was collage or wherever he was going.  Brett was an awesome football player, quarter back.  he was the kind of person you would turn to for help, when you needed it most." I lost control and started to cry "Even though Brett was a jerk sometimes he was probably one of the best guys I know and I wish I would have had the chance to tell him that but I don't and I guess I'm hoping that he's with us right now so I can tell him everything I never had the chance to say"

"I love him like he's my brother, he was the best jerk that I couldn't live without." what is there left to say, I don't know anymore.

i started to cry harder "its not fair, im sorry.  but its not, death shouldn't be wished on anyone and death shouldn't occur until your time is right.  Brett was still a kid in so many ways and life was just beginning for him, I tried so hard to tell myself that I wanted people to tell me that things aren't okay when my dad passed away but its different this time because I don't have Brett to tell me that like he did, all I need to hear is everything will be okay because Brett's happy now, and he's going to be okay"

people were nodding agreeing with me, "I remember when Brett and I were hanging out once maybe 2 years ago, he was sitting on the top branch of this huge oak tree I couldn't get up, because I was scared of heights.  He had this bright orange shirt on that said I rule the world, and the biggest smile because he could do something that I couldn't, which for Brett was hard. "Just grab my hand and close you're eyes I'll pull you up" he said but I couldn't do it. I remember that sad puppy look he gave me it was like he felt guilty because I couldn't do it and he got down.-

-I asked him why he got down and his answer was "you don't win the game by cheating" he was really into sports talk. I'll never forget that day or what he said to me that's my best memory, memories like that are the ones we need to keep in our hearts keep him close, I'll never forget you Brett Dawson."

Liam helped me back to my seat as the priest said a prayer, then i watched as he was buried in the ground.

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"how are you holding up?" Niall asked. I shrugged "I don't know, I'm fine I guess."  niall didn't bother to ask me anymore questions he could tell I was barley keeping it together as it is.