Plain & Simple(One direction)

Chapter 23

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I sat on the edge of Liam's bed playing with my thumbs avoided eyes contact, it's been like 20 minutes and we've said about seven words. We've gone way past the awkward stage.

"Look Liam, I ran because i was scared" I spoke up, finally Liam turned to me, his mouth formed a strait line.

"When I lost the baby I was pretty sure that I'd lose you to, I thought-"

"You seriously thought I'd leave you, just because you didn't have the baby anymore, am I really that big of an asshole?" He spat, Liam was never angry like this, it's really just gotten worse because of me.

"No I just mean-"

"Just mean what?!" He yelled "if you would shut the hell up and let me finish maybe I could tell you!" I yelled, standing. Liam stayed quite, waiting for me to finish.

"I'm leaving for school, and your leaving on the tour, it just got me thinking that maybe when you left, it would mean that you were also leaving me" I sighed sitting back down..

"Alison, I love you" he turned, reaching for my hands, holding them in his.  Liam and I haven't really said that a lot, other people would say I love you everyday but with us, it was a once in a while thing.

"I wasn't sure about the baby" he started, I looked up at him, waiting for him to finish what he was about to say "when you first told me I was scared out of my mind, in all honestly I didn't want a baby, I mean I just would never get to see the baby, we'd always be traveling, if I'm going to have a child I want to live in one place for them to grow up, but my career is just starting really, and I can't just stop what I'm doing" his eyes started to water, but I had started to cry.

Liam didn't actually want the baby, why the hell wouldn't he tell me this?

'So you career is more important than our child!?" I yelled pulling my hand away "Thats not what I meant" He added "oh really" I snapped 

"Ally, I would never have left you, or the baby if you had it.  I would have done whatever i needed to do, that was a promise" I sighed.

"I don't want to argue about this anymore" I started "we need to start packing, assuming your coming with us to New York" I said "Of course, but are we okay?" he asked I cupped his face, and kissed him, lingering for a minute.

"we're fine" I answered before standing up and walking out.

well I guess that could have been worse.

"hey Peter, I'm going to head to the arena for a little bit, maybe get one last game in, is that okay?" I asked poking my head into the kitchen, "of course, yo equipment is still in the jeep" he nodded I smiled and started on my way to the arena.

I haven't seen the guys since the miscarriage, so this could be a little awkward. I opened the trunk and slung my bag over my shoulder, making my way inside, I noticed everybody's cars were here so I figured they'd all be inside, without going to see the guys first I walked into the dressing room and changed as fast as I could.

the last time I was out on this ice, a living thing inside of me, my child, died.  Something I never thought would happen.

Bryon was the first to notice me, he stopped skating and just stood there looking at me, in shock.