BESTFRIEND

Chapter 1: Love Scenario

2018

Hanbin

It feels good to receive so much love from the songs I made this comeback. To be recognized by many and to make great comeback.

"Kyaaaah you made a very biggest hit song for love scenario and your latest album iKON RETURN. What inspires you to write these songs?", interviewer asked while I had so many thoughts in my mind. I smiled while members looked at me. That was just split of seconds but everytime I am asked this question, I lowkey think of that person.

It's true that I was inspired by the movie La la Land in love scenario but other songs sings my deepest emotions. Every songs has its depth that people don't seem to see or realized until the artist or composer makes a declaration of what the song refers it to be. It was more than I could ever imagined when my whole world crashed into pieces. I was stop by such thoughts when Jinhwan Hyung touched my back. He was sitting next to me. I realized everyone was looking at me especially the members. They were tensed because I was spaced out for a moment. Right, I needed to answer the same statements just like in recent interviews:

'I was inspired by the last 10 minutes of the film 'La La Land'". He continued, "The main protagonist smiles at his past lover in the end, and I felt 'that's enough'.

'The La la Land movie excuse and all the kdramas I've watched', hanbin thought to himself.

After the interview, I am so tired I wanna go lay off to my bed. Yunhyeong tried looking at me like he wants me to tell him something.

'What now?' I asked annoyingly just to stop him from asking me more personal.

He smiled and said 'Anya, (Nothing). I just thought if you could share things to me, i'm just here'.

I still refuse to say things and just laughed dryly. I don't want them worrying about my personal feelings. It's something I'm very concious about. Bobby just stared at me. I was really in the middle of being roasted when all of them just stop on walking towards the van where we are heading and face at me like I'm the guilty person (but yes I am).

I just raised my leaderly like attitude. 'Ya, there's nothing to worry about. We should focus on this comeback and be happy about this. Alright? Let's do our best for our fans.'

They nodded but I could see Jinhwan Hyung being worried. I walked right away from them. I know they are worried about me not having yet to move on. I know they knew about the dark secret I've hidden through my songs. Especially Bobby Hyung. He was the first one to talk to me in private after I showed them my composition.

'Are you sure of this?' He worriedly asked that time. I just nodded.

'Ya? Kim Hanbin, what are you gonna do if this becomes so obvious?', Again the look in his eyes seemed so worried. Obviously he is really worried calling me with my real name.

'Anya... I.. I'll handle it. We'll discuss about it.' I replied.

'What if CEO Yang gets disturbed about this?'

'Tsh, he wouldn't think we're dating. He always checked on our schedules and daily activities. Don't worry about it'. I responded quickly with a smile plastered on my face.

When he asked about something else, I can't stare at his eyes. I looked away at the window beside us and just shrugged.

I don't know actually. I just want to focus on working hard for the members and fans. They are the only thing that currently matters now.