Emotionless

She made a big mistake, Debbie made a big mistake.

I started to boil and feel angry because I just saw my girlfriend and my best friend having sex in a junior classroom at that moment I could kill anybody even the both of them.

But I had to keep my cool and just stay calm and I kept breathing in and out loudly with anger I didn't even know what to do whether to cry,to laugh, to get angry, to be sad and I just didn't know how to feel so I rushed out and went to the car and drove off.

I didn't know where I was going because I have been driving for the past thirty minutes and I had no destination. But I finally found the spot where I always go to whenever I was not in a good mood. So I pulled up the car and started to think about what I just saw it was unbelievable and unbearable. Thinking and thinking and thinking till I slept off.

7:30 in the morning,
I woke up still in the car but a cop was knocking on the windscreen of the car asking me to move my car or it will be tolled,so I just drove off and went home.

On reaching home I saw my parents standing on the balcony looking worried about me but I just had this feeling of not caring and I went in and my parents kept shouting things like
''Where were you''
''Where did you pass your night''
''Didn't you care we will be worried''
But all of what they said didn't seem to move me instead I just went into my room without responding to any of their questions.

I had a nice shower thinking it would help me refresh my brain and make me stop thinking but instead it made me do the opposite. I just felt angrier that even my mother's special treat could not calm me down and I just the unthinkable of me.
I didn't eat and I went out without a car and went to the fairly used car dealers and bought a car at least I planned to buy a new car and not a fairly used car but I wasn't thinking straight I was too angry that I didn't understand what was right or wrong.

The nice, cool, funny, and friendly Micheal has now become the anger dude. I was lost.

I WAS EMOTIONLESS.