Loving the Bad

chapter 27

Becca's P.O.V

All this week I've been deep in thought about our little "argument" the other day. It mainly was because of me and my emotions. I can't help it. I wish I could.

I knew he wouldn't leave... I mean he couldn't right now anyways. Especially when I'm this depressed, hurt, broken, Etc... He knows I need him.

In all the 18 years I've been alive this is the worst I've ever felt about myself and my life, and that isn't an over exaggeration.

I hope my depression isn't contagious because I'd hate for Anthony to be sad just because I am. At this point the only time I smile is when I'm high or drunk. Which probably isn't the greatest thing in the world.

It's now Friday and I'm currently sitting at lunch drowning myself in chocolate and chocolate milk.

"Girl cheer up, tomorrow is the party and we finna turn up. I already picked out our costumes." Marcia squealed and clapped her hands. Even when she's depressed it doesn't show.

"Oh yeah? What is it? Slutty nurses? Play boy bunnies again?"

"Noo something better. SLUTTY NUNS!" She squealed some more as I shook my head in disappointment.

Halloween is one of Marcia's favorite holidays because, her parents always go out of town for the weekend and, they allow her to throw a costume party. Which also means she gets to be as slutty as possible without her parents knowing.

"Oh boy, wait do you actually think Anthony will let me dress like that?"

"I mean he should. Besides at the end of the night your his, and you'll end up in his bed." She nudged me while also giving me a wink.

My phone buzzed. I looked down to see who it was.

Unknown: I just transferred $100,000 into your account. Love you lots and miss you.

My father. The reason why I'm so depressed. Do you know the saying "money doesn't but happiness"? Well it's true. If I could buy my father back I would but there's not enough money in the world to make him come back home.

I decide to text Anthony. I've spent the last couple nights at my house trying to give him some distance, that way I don't infect him some more with my depression.

He was here at school yesterday but, not today.

Me: hey babe wyd?

Hubby 💋: Laying in bed eating popcorn watching a movie.

Me: you wanna come pick me up? I don't wanna be here.

Hubby 💋: yeah I'll be there in 20

Me: kk 💘

"Hey Anthony's gonna come pick me up so I'll see you tomorrow at the party."

"Is everything okay?" I looked into her eyes and saw worriness. She always worries about me.

"Yeah everything is fine I just miss my man. Speaking of mans... How's everything with you and Chris."

She glanced at her hands while twiddling her thumbs. "Everything is fine. I'm still contemplating whether I should give him a chance or not. I'm worried. Also, Becca I'm not sure if I said this or not... But, I'm sorry for acting like a complete total bitch. I want the best for you and if he makes you happy then I have to be accepting of that. I love you." She wrapped her arms around my shoulders and held me tightly.

"I'm not gonna lie that was corny as fuck. Apology accepted. I love you too bestie. There's nothing bad that could happen while being in a relationship with Chris. He'll keep you safe. All he's asking for is your attention and love. Give him a chance."

"How the fuck are you so good at giving advice? Ugh! I'm jealous."

"I have no clue." My phone buzzed again and I glanced down.

Hubby 💋: Here

"I gotta go Marcia. Love you see you tomorrow."

"Be at the party early at like 2 or 3. I need your help. Also, bring a couple bottles of booze."

"Gotcha." I turned around and left the cafeteria and headed towards the front of the school.

Anthony's P.O.V

I'm not depressed not at all. It's just hard seeing the woman I love be so sad all the time. I always feel like I'm around her to much. So I try to keep a distance every now and then.

"Hey babe!!" Becca squealed as she got in the car.

"Hey. I missed you" I gave her a slight grin.

"Oh yeah?" She reached over wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me, sticking her tounge in my mouth almost instantly.

She continued kissing until I grabbed the side of her face pulling her away.

She looked up at me with sad eyes. "I missed you more."

"Where do you wanna go?"

"To the mall. I got paid and I'm feeling lucky."

"Your wish is my command." I put the car in drive. The mall is about 15 minutes away from the school.

"So.. Anthony I just wanted to say sorry. I really am. I don't wanna make you sad because of my problems."

"Your problems are my problems. We're in this together. The issue with your father is my issue too. If I didn't love you I wouldn't put up with it. Not to sound cheesey or anything. Also, I'm not depressed I just hate seeing you sad."

"God I fucking love you." She reached over again and kissed me on the cheek.

*30 minutes later*

"Pick any pair of shoes you want. I don't care how much they cost. " Becca and I stood in front of a wall of shoes. She's been trying to get me to pick a pair of shoes for the last ten minutes."

"No I don't want you to buy me anything."

"Fine." She turned around and walked over to an employee. Then, waled up to the front counter swiped her card and walked back over to me with a bag of two shoe boxes.

"What did you get?" I asked her while both of us walked out of the store.

"Something for me and you. Now time for serious business. Marcia wants me to dress up as a slutty nun with her so you are gonna be our father."

"I didn't agree to this but why "slutty nuns"? Why couldn't y'all pick something like care bears?"

"I don't know ask Marcia. She always picks something slutty for Halloween. You should know this." She giggled.

"So what do I have to wear?"

"A black long sleeve polo, black pants, and the shoes I bought you. Also, your hair has to be slicked back."

"Okay I have all that."

"Now we're going to go pick up me and Marcia's costumes. To the lingerie store."

"Ay dios mio." I shook my head and followed her. (Oh my God)

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