Pick me | Wanna One

4.8

Seonho and I were walking to school together. I turned to him. He noticed and stopped walking then turned to me.

"Uhm, so I made plans to hang out with some friends from school today. I might not be home for dinner." He nods.

"Okay, be safe. Text me occasionally to let me know you're fine." I nod.

"After yesterday I kinda want extra reassurance that you're fine because I got really scared when I wasn't getting a response." Hearing him say that made me feel really bad.

"I'm really sorry about that." I stared at the ground. He softly grabbed my shoulders to get my attention. He softly shook his head.

"Don't be. Just please don't do it again." I nod. He engulfs me with a hug and ruffles my hair.

"I love you." He said in a melodic way. I haven't heard him say that in years. I thought that he outgrew it.

"I love you too." I said back. He squeezed me softly. I felt like a little kid again. Getting comforted by my brother when I was upset and him reassuring me that he was there for me. I wanted to hug him for a bit longer. I wanted to be comforted by him even though he didn't know what it was about. I wanted to be that little kid again. But he broke the hug soon after.

"Now let's go. I don't want you to be late." I nodded and followed him. The moment we entered the building, we walked separate ways to our class. I wanted the day to be done so I could hang out with Linong and his friends and forget about the situation I caused yesterday. But the day had just begun.

"Hey, Seonmi!" I heard someone call my name. I turned to see Daehwi jogging towards me.

"Are you okay now?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yeah, definitely better than yesterday." He smiles softly.

"That's good. As long as you're feeling better." He looks around.

"Uhm, so, do you happen to want to talk about what happened?- Not that I'm pressuring you to tell me! Just if, you know, you wanted to talk about it. I wanted you to know I'll listen." I give him a small smile.

"Thank you, but I'd prefer not to. There's just, multiple parts to it and it's just a big mess. It's a long story and-"

"I'll listen, it doesn't matter if it takes years to tell...I'd listen. Don't worry about scaring me off if that's your concern. I just want to be there for you, to be a good friend." I was unsure of how to respond. I didn't want to hide my past from him but at the same time I didn't want him to get into an altercation with Minho. I didn't want anyone I was close to, to even think about Minho and what he had done. Or maybe I, don't want to think about Minho and what he did.

"Maybe another time. I just don't want to really think about it right now. But, maybe another time and definitely a different place. I don't wanna talk about it where anyone can hear." He nods.

"Okay, that's fine. I'll see you later." I smile softly and nod lightly.

"See you." He walked away and I walked off to the garden area.

"In all the times that I've come here, I don't think I ever really paid attention to the pretty flowers." I muttered to myself as I looked at a specific kind of flower. The national flower of South Korea.

"Hibiscus Syriacus, also known as the Rose of Sharon. It's a pretty flower. Did you know that your country says it symbolizes immortality? My country says it symbolizes virginity, wealth, gentles, and fame." I heard someone say behind me. I turned and saw Justin.

"You know about flower types?" He shook his head.

"Not really, but I remembered this one for some reason." He had his hands in his pockets and was leaning against the entrance.

"How'd you find me?" He chuckled softly.

"This is gonna sound creepy but I followed you. I saw you in the hallway and I was gonna try and talk to you but you were walking away so I followed you here." I nod.

"You have a place picked for later today?" He nods.

"Yeah, but it's a secret. You'll have to find out when we go." He smiled and slowly walked over to me.

"So, what made you come here?" He asked.

"I don't really know, I just...wanted to look around before class started. Kind of, clear my mind I guess." I practically sighed out my words.

"Is there something bothering you?" He looked concerned.

"Nothing serious." Lie.

"I just occasionally come to clear my mind." And by occasionally I mean whenever something happens.

"This is where you always come to clear your mind?" I nod.

"When did you first start coming here? When did you first find it?" I shrug.

"I just stumbled upon it one day earlier this year. Then, it became my safe place. Somewhere I could come to when everywhere else felt suffocating." He stands next to me. He doesn't turn to look at me, he just looks at the flower.

"You know, instead of relying on a location to make you feel better and safe. You should find a person who feels like a safe place. Whether it's a friend, family member, or a boyfriend. You should find someone to rely on instead of a place that you can't hold onto after you graduate." I took in a deep breath.

"I did. It was a boyfriend, but it didn't work out. There was a problem that happened and...I lost it. I lost him, the safe version of him. I could still talk to him now that I got past it but it can't return to that. He can't be my safe place anymore." I held back any emotions that wanted to show.

"Try again then. Don't let that stop you from finding someone again. And when you do, hold on and don't let them go." I bit my lip, unsure of how to respond. I turned to Justin to see he was still staring at the flower. Softly touching it to observe. He then checked his phone.

"Time for class. I'll see you later." He turned to face me and smiled before waving and walking off to class.

<A/N> So, I suddenly got inspiration to write this chapter. (Maybe Wanna One's comeback.) But, in honor of Wanna One's last comeback, here is the next chapter. I will hopefully write at least one more chapter before the week ends. But, I probably shouldn't promise because you never know what happens. Side note, look at Justin being a bit more of a grown up in this chapter. Anyways, I hope you enjoyed the chapter. Also, thanks for the 1K votes and 31K views. You all are the best! For all the people who would try to stay on top of my story through my irregular update pattern, THANK YOU SO MUCH! But also, IM SO SORRY THAT IM NOT CONSISTENT! I'll try to do better in the future! (For anyone who made it this far in this long paragraph, comment your bias in Wanna One!) Well, I'll see you next time, Bye! <A/N>