Helplessly Falling

Chp 9

[Derek's pov]

I'm so angry. What the actual fuck. Every boy was just eye fucking her as if she was a piece of meat. I know she believes she isn't good enough or pretty enough. But if she knew how many boys were trying to date or get in her pants she'd see everything differently.

Did she look good? Hell yes. Part of the reason I'm pissed. I've been in love with this girl for so long and hurting her isn't what I want. I don't want Mia and I don't want Star with Ryan. But I had to get with Mia to protect Star. Complicated I know.

I'm counting down from ten to steady my breaths. And recollect Myself.

"Get off of me, and leave me alone Derek! I mean it." She says as her chest is rising and falling at a rapid pace. Our bodies are still flush against one another, and it'd be a shame if I was the only one feeling the spark between us.

"Listen to me. God damn it." I snap. That's not what I really wanted to say. What I wanted to say was I'm sorry.

"I don't know what you think you're doing, I don't know if you're trying to capture my attention but-"

My head is flown to the right. There is a stinging sensation on my cheek, from where her hand just was. I grab my face and look down at her, stunned. She looks surprised by her actions too. But she doesn't let that deter her. She quickly collects herself.

"Capture your attention?" She laughs like she's mocking me. "I'm currently seeing someone, and I'm happy with that someone. Who also seems to be in tune with his emotions. He doesn't leave me guessing he-"

I pull out some of her chocolate curls, and she gasps. I slowly undo her bun and watch as her hair falls around her face. I'm mesmerized. Star is panting, under my touch and I haven't even done anything. If only she knew how she made me feel.

I grab her face in my two hands and hungrily press my lips onto hers. She's hesitant at first, but slowly she begins to move her tongue with mine. I pick her up by her thighs, and her legs instantly wrap around my waist. She gasps and traces her hands up and down my muscled body. I hurriedly throw off her sweaty cheer top, and pepper kisses up and down her stomach. Her body responds to my touch as her back arches.

I let out a low moan. She's so sexy. So beautiful. I kiss the length of her jawline before beginning to suck on her neck.

As if a spell has been lifted. Star drops out of my arms and pushes me away. She then throws on her shirt, her breathing still erratic. She touches her lips with her fingers as tears begin to pool in her eyes.

Shit. How do I always find a way to hurt her?

"That can't ever happen again." That's the only thing she says before running out of the locker room.

Can never happen again. Can never happen again. Can never happen again. Can never happen again.

Plays in a loop in my head.

[Star's pov]

I run down the now vacant hallway all the way out the front doors. I can't breathe I'm gasping for air that I can't seem to find until, the evening air blasts into my lungs.

I look back and see if Derek has followed me. He has not. I begin briskly walking. How the hell am I getting home? I'd call Sophia but I'm not ready for the third degree.

I sigh and just continue the trek home. Again I should really pick up a sport.

The kiss just kept looping over and over in my head. Why'd I kiss him back? Why'd he kiss me? Does he like me? Do I still like him? All these questions flooded my brain. If I could turn my brain off I would.