Kira (boyxboy)

Chapter 3

I close my eyes and take deep breaths. Joy runs up behind me ands pants. "Fuck! I didn't expect him to hear us. Sorry Kier. Well it was just a crush anyways. You didn't actually expect it to work out right?" She tries to laugh it off like always, but she doesn't know that he's one of my closest friends. I bite my lip and lie through my teeth, "Haha yeah it was just a little crush." I walk away back to class. I'm praying that Aaron will give me a chance to explain. Our friendship can't just end like this. I'll try and catch him after school or hopefully he'll be at the music room tomorrow morning. I'm trying hard to convince myself that everything will be okay.

After school I see Aaron walking out of the building. I call out to him and I see him stiffen. He acts like he doesn't hear me and starts walking faster. I start to chase after him trying to catch up, but once we turn around the corner of the school he suddenly stops. He looks at me with eyes filled with disgust and my heart stops. "Stop following me Kieran. You're disgusting. I can't believe you've been lying to me this whole time! You...You...You FAG!" I jerk back and my face burns as if I've just been slapped. I've never seen this side of him before. He looks like a stranger to me. Do I not know him after all? I rock back on my heels stunned. By the time I focus on reality Aaron is already gone. I'm in 100% denial, I'm sure he's just temporarily in shock. He doesn't mean all of those hurtful words he's said. I'll look for him again tomorrow morning, he'll be in a better frame of mind. I move through the rest of the day like a zombie.

The next day and the next and the next I don't see Aaron. He's been avoiding me like the plague. Two months have already gone by since I've last spoken to Aaron and as the days go by it has only been getting worse for me. Someone spread the word that I'm gay. Everyone has been isolating me and I get nasty looks. Luckily no one has gotten physical with me but I don't think that's going to last. However at one point the looks people have been giving me has changed into something strange. It has become more than disgust, it's a mixture of hatred, fear, disgust and pure loathing. Even the teachers are giving me ugly looks and I don't get it. Joy and the crew have also started drifting. They keep making excuses to stay away from me, but I feel clueless, until I finally overhear some people whispering when I walk out of the restroom.

"Did you remember when that kid Cole committed suicide four months ago? I heard that Kieran raped him and that's why he offed himself." "No way...how do you know? Are you sure?" "Yeah he's gay you know! He could do anything! That creep...so disgusting. I hear that Aaron found out and told his teammates. My boyfriend's on the team and he told me." "No fucking way. Kieran looks so cute and innocent, I can't believe it...but he's gay so he could do anything. Damn you can't trust anyone anymore!"

I sharply inhale and start to feel dizzy. Aaron told everyone I was a rapist? What the fuck? I sprint out into the hallway and run out of the school building. I smash into someone and fall back onto the floor. I'm about to apologize when I hear a deep mellow voice saying, "hey watch where you're going!" I look up and our eyes meet. Both of our faces show extreme shock but Aaron also looks guilty. He quickly gets up and speed walks into the building not even sparing me another glance.

I stand there, not moving an inch. The wind slaps me across my face but I continue to stand. I stand until I feel like I've laid roots into the ground but I feel water on my face. Is it raining? I look up. Oh...it's just my tears. I feel stifled and I can't hold it in anymore. I fall to my knees and cover my face while tears gush out like rivers. All I can feel is despair. I trusted him.