Love Story (A Shawn Mendes Fanfiction)

Chapter 25- Beside you

5 seconds of summer

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From that day on it was heaven. Shawn and I, spending time together, kissing a lot. It was great.

It felt like nothing could come between us.

Exept for maybe his job. He had to travel a lot. And I couldn't join him, now that I had a permanent job at the dance studio.

In the following month I spent so many nights alone in his apartment. Of course we talked a lot over facetime but it wasn't the same.

And at the same time I couldn't tell him the one most intimate thing about me that he didn't know yet.

I was still a virgin.

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I was fast asleep when I heard  knock on the door and Shawn entered. "Oh my god! What are you doing here. I thought you were in Europe right now?", I said tired, but happy to see him as I hugged him tight.

"I missed you. I needed to see you. So I spontaneously flew back here. I mean, I have a week until my next concert. So I'm free."

He smiled the whole time and then kissed me softly.

I hadn't given much thought about things going too far with him yet, because we didn't actually spend so much time together, that anything could happen. But now that he was here, for a whole week- we didn't have that much time together since we started dating- my thoughts were running wild.

I mean, I wanted it with him, but I just didn't know if I was ready yet.

I knew for a fact that he did it before, a lot of times, even with older women.

So maybe I was so scared that when he learned about my innocence he'd be repelled by it- which was a stupid thought really. He would never do this.

I think.

As he was in the bathroom getting ready for bed I changed into something more... appropriate. Till this point I had worn an old shirt of his, because they always smelled so nice.

But now I quickly changed into a silk nightgown in the color of soft beige with lace on the edge of the fabric.

As I heard the bathroom door unlock I quickly threw myself back on the bed and watched Shawn throw his dirty laundry into a corner and lay down next to me in his boxers.

He always slept like this, shirtless, with only his boxers on. Kinda distracting you might think. And yes, it was really damn distracting me from sleeping.

As he lay there next to me, looking at me with his lovely eyes all my doubts about our relationship seemed to disappear.

I leaned over to him and pressed my lips on his. He immediately responded to the kiss by sliding his tongue in my mouth and laying back onto his pillow so I was in control.

His hands he laid on my waist, helping me climb on top of him, kissing deeper, more passionate.

We have had a handful of makeout sessions like that, but before it could go too far and I'd have had to tell him about my virginity, something or someone always interrupted us.

But this time it was unlikely. It was almost 2 am in the morning and he was on vacation for a week. No one was going to interrupt us.

His hands slid up my nightgown and touched the skin on my thighs gently, making me get goosebumps.

I let my hands slide from his hair, over his neck down to his chest, feeling the hair under my fingers.

His hands wandered higher, while his lips pressed strongly against mine, making me go crazy. I put my hands in his hair again, when he turned us around so he was on top.

His lips separated from mine only to kiss down my neck. It took him a while to find my sweet spot, but when he did, I was grabbing his hair harder with pleasure and he moaned against my skin.

But as his hands reached my breasts I pushed him away gently: "Shawn, I need to tell you something before this goes any further.", I gasped and he looked at me, still with pleasure in his eyes, but with attention.

"I've... never...", I stuttered and he realized: "You're still a virgin", he sat up to give me some space, as he got a little heavy on top of me after a while.

I nodded embarassed and look down.

"You don't have to be embarassed. I just thought, I mean, you were together with Jackson."

"I always wanted to wait. Maybe my subconscious always knew that he was wrong for me. And well, he was my first boyfriend, like ever.

But I'm sure with you, so if you still want to...", I looked at him with curious eyes. Yes, I really wanted it with him.

But he shook his head: "No, not like that. I want your first time to be perfect. Mine wasn't, and I will regret it for the rest of my life. I won't let the same thing happen to you."

He lay down next to me and pulled me in his arms.

"I promise you. It's gonna be special. ", he kissed my forehead gently and I pressed my cheek aginst his chest.

"By the way, that color looks really hot on you", was the last thing Shawn mumbled before drifting off to sleep, accompanied with a slight tug on my nightgown.

I smiled, before falling asleep as well.