A/N - thank you all for the lovely comment's you sent me because of the hate problems, you don't realise how happy you made me feel. i genually cried reading everything you sent me. love you all xx
i know this is short and kinda lame, but it's just a filler. i'll try to update as soon as possible :)
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"You had another dream about him, haven't you?" Jennifer jumped at the sudden voice interrupting her thoughts. Nurse Sarah arched an eyebrow at the young girl's reaction.
She sighed and rubbed her face. "Just had a weird dream, that's all"
Nurse Sarah shook her head. "Liar"
Jennifer narrowed her eye's at the young nurse. "It's the truth"
"You know", Nurse Sarah got up from her seat and rested a hand on Jennifer's shoulder. "You should stop keeping everything to yourself. It isn't healthy. One day, you will wake up still thinking about something that happen years ago and you won't know what to do, and you will start feeling bad about yourself. You will reach a point where you won't be able to go back and fix your mistakes" Nurse Sarah smiled at the young girl, before turning around and walking to other patients of the Asylum.
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"Jen"
"Jennifer"
"Jens"
"Jenna"
"Jay"
"Jennaaaaa"
"WHAT?" Jennifer snapped, making Theodore chuckle and stop poking her.
"So, that tree looks good?" Theodore chuckled as she seated himself next to blond girl.
"Huh?" Jennifer looked at the dark haired boy next to her, confusing written all over her face.
"You've been staring at that tree for the past 30 minutes"
"Really?" Theodore nodded. "Oh"
"You okay? You act like your body was here but your mind was somebody else, like, the whole day" Theodore furrowed his eyebrows, looking at the grass beneath his feet.
"I just had a weird dream" Jennifer sighed. Theodore nodded.
After a small silence, Jennifer looked at her hands. "Ted?" she whispered.
"Yeah?" Theodore whispered back, taking a small glance at the girl next to him.
"Do you think someone is destined to be mean?" Jennifer furrowed her small eyebrows. "Like you were born with a bad destiny, one that will change you completely"
Theodore's eyes fell on the young blond girl next to him. "What do you mean?"
A young and sobbing Harry flashed across Jennifer's mind. She sighed. "Imagine if you were in your childhood years and that you were happy, actually happy, and that one day something happens to you and you stop being happy, but instead of being sad, you get angry. Instead of staying in your place feeling miserable, you start hurting people around you," Jennifer gulped. "Would you feel like you were destined to be mean and dangerous, or would you try to change everything or would you accept and continue with your fate?"
Theodore looked at the blue and almost clean sky above them. Occasionally, a white fluffy cloud would pass. "I don't really know how to answer that, to be honest"
Jennifer watched as the young dark haired boy chased the occasionally passing clouds with his eyes.
Theodore's light brown with a small hint of green eyes looked into Jennifer's light blue one's. "Think about death. Once you kill yourself, you can't come back to stop yourself from doing that. If you murder someone, you won't be able to make that person come to life again, even if you feel horrible with yourself. You can't go back in time, like you can't fix some mistakes you've done. Life is short. You can do whatever you feel like doing in that moment but you can also think about the consequences of doing it before you actually fulfill the action"
"So you think if you're destined to be bad, you can change your faith if you think about the consequences of your actions?"
"Kinda," Theodore smirked. "You can still turn out to be evil, but you can choose from hurting people to just having mean thoughts"
Jennifer looked at her petite little hands. She thought of how small Harry's hands were compared with hers in that dream. She thought about how innocent he looked. How sad and scared he seemed to be.
"You can always change your destiny, you know" Theodore's voice interrupted Jennifer's thoughts, making her glance at the dark haired boy ever so slightly.
"Some of us die of old age, some of us can die earlier as some of us can live happy. The only thing that it's actually destined to happened is death. We will all die someday, but we can choose to live life in fear of it ending, or enjoy it until the end finally comes" Theodore smirked at the young blond girl next to him. Jennifer smirked back.
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Theodore and Jennifer spent the whole day in the main room of the Asylum messing around with each other, telling lame jokes and funny stories about their past to each other.
"-And then," Theodore chuckled. "He fell from the surf-board!" They both laughed loudly, making all the other patients look at them.
After a few more laughs, a calm and comfortable silence appeared between them. Theodore smirked ever so slightly. For him, putting a smile on someone who usually doesn't smile at all, made him feel like there was still a reason to live for. Hearing his young blond friend laugh, gave him hope.
"Hey, Ted?" Theodore nodded to young girl next to him.
"What happen to your brother?"
"Who? Jeff?"
"Yeah" Jennifer smirked.
Theodore arched an eyebrow at his friend. "Why do you think something happened to him?"
"Well," Jennifer started. "You don't talk about him often, and when you do, you usually talk in a past sentence" Jennifer shrugged.
Theodore put his head back, making it rest on the top of the white metal chair. "He died"
Jennifer blinked. "What"
"He died," Theodore repeated. "Suicide"
Jennifer looked down at the white Asylum floor. "Oh. I'm sorry"
"It's okay," Theodore shrugged. "He was too good for this world, anyway".
Jennifer smirked ever so softly. "You really liked him, didn't you?"
Theodore smiled. "Yeah... Still do, though" Jennifer smiled.
Harold sat far away in the dark corner of the Asylum's main room, watching Jennifer's every movement, listening to every thought she had. "One day, she will know everything" he thought to himself, as his body vanished into the darkness of the corner.
