Feelings

Late night thoughts

What if I said no?

What if you weren't my first kiss?

What if I had realized,

That you are my downfall.

What if it was only a dance?

What if you had actually cared?

What if my bruises really were,

from anything other than you.

What if I had the oppurtunity to scream?

What if I had the baby?

What if I wasn't only,

a fourteen year old child?

What if I didn't see you in my nightmares?

What if the thought of seeing you didn't terrify me?

What if you were a Normal,

Ordinary,

Loving,

First boyfriend?

What if your wrong doings are all my fault?