Feelings

I'm Not...

Poem #5

I'm Not...

they lie,

they steal,

they treaten.

Why does my family do this to each other?

they hurt each other,

then say don't drag "her" into this

she will be FINE they said,

she will be OKAY they said,

she will SMILE AGAIN they said,

they don't know anything about me. 

the pain they put me through,

HOW DO I EXPLAIN WHY I DON'T SMILE TO MY OBLIVIOUS BABY SISTER?

HOW DO I TELL THEM THAT I AM NOT OKAY?

HOW DO THEY NOT REALIZE THAT I AM NOT FINE?

I'm not 

okay or fine,

I don't know how to smile,

anymore,

how to laugh,

how to forgive,

and I can't forget,

that I'm not ever going to be,

free of this feeling,

I'm not...