In love with an Introvert (Thomas Brodie- Sangster x Reader) »COMPLETED«

Chapter 5

Play the song when I say so.
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Y/N POV
I just couldn't take it anymore. While I was running home I let a tear escaped my eye, then I realized that I was silently sobbing. As I arrived home, I didn't have the time to greet my parents, because I rushed into my room and let myself break down into tears.

After that I didn't noticed it was already 7:30 pm. I didn't want to eat dinner, I lost my appetite. Now, I'm currently in my room not wanting get out. I started to look around my room and I spotted my old guitar just standing on it's stand. Did I mention I used to play the guitar and I wasn't an introvert before? No? Well now that I have mentioned it, might as well tell you the backstory about it.

-Flashback-

I was 10 years old when I got it. My uncle gave it to me for my birthday. I started to teach myself because if you are in my family, if you want something then you gotta learn it yourself. So, I taught myself, I happily play it alone in my room whenever I'm sad or happy.

I stopped playing it because of people making my self- esteem get lower, my self- confidence disappeared when I was 11. Somehow, I grew a little depressed. One of the reasons of it is being filled with hatred. I got trust issues because of having fake friends when I was 12. I didn't really cared about anything around me besides books, fictions, and movies. That's why I started to become a bit of an introvert, then when an old friend named Thomas told me that he finally had a girlfriend, that's where I meet Lavender, when Thomas isn't around, she would just do everything  people did to me back then. So, that just made myself become a full blown introvert, and I never touched my guitar again.

-End of Flashback-

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I decided to give it a shot. So I grabbed my guitar, sat by the edge of my bed, facing the window,  made sure its still in tune. And i tried to remember a song that I can play. Then I remembered one.

(Somebody that I used to know by Gotye) Play the song now.

Now and then I think of when we were together,
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
I told myself that you were right for me, but felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You could get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignition to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense, well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make it like it never happen and then we were nothing
I don't even need your love but you treat me like a stranger and that feel so rough

No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and the change your number
Guess that I don't need that though

Now you're just somebody that I used to know.... 
Now you're just somebody that I used to know.... 

Then the song continued until the end. I stared at nothing for a moment. "Akala ko hindi ko na maririnig ang magandang tunog ng gitara at ng boses ng anak ko" (Translation: I thought I would never hear the glorious sound of the guitar and the sweet voice of my daughter) I suddenly hear my mum, I turned around to look at her, leaning at the side of the door frame arms crossed. I slightly smiled at her, indicating me saying thank you. She came to sit beside me, even if I don't tell anything, my mother can sense that somethings wrong and gave me a comforting hug, tears started to flow again, and I started to sob. "Shhh it's okay, you'll get through this, you don't have to tell me if you don't want me to know." She said, while rubbing my back. I nod in response.

I'm getting myself ready for bed. Took a shower, get dressed in sleeping clothes, which for me it's just a shirt and a pajama shorts, and brushed my teeth and hair. I lay on the bed staring at the ceiling, thinking of what's gonna happen tomorrow and other things, until I fall into a dreamless sleep.