Start Over Again

V

             I woke up alone. Blake's never woke before me so this was really unusual. Getting up and walking across my room, I hopped in the shower feeling a lot better than I did last night. When I got out, I walked back to my bedroom to get ready. I didn't feel like going out anywhere today so I just changed into some clean pyjamas and wandered downstairs to watch a film with the boys.

"Morning!" I said, sitting next to George and placing my head on his shoulder. He just looked at me and shoved me away. Assuming he was just not feeling good this morning, I got up and wandered toward the kitchen door. "Have you guys eaten or do you want something?" I queried. All that I got in response was a faint glance from Reece but that was short lived. About half an hour later, I walked out with a full English breakfast on a tray. "I'm going to eat upstairs since my company is clearly unwanted here!"

"Shut up man! Not everything is about you!" George spat at me.

"What?" I stuttered.

"You're always hanging around us. Ever consider that we might be done with your shit? That we don't want to put up with you and your problematic life? That we'd much rather be living with anyone but you right now?"

"George I-... Where is this coming from?"

"You know what Deanna? I completely agree with everything Reece said to you the night he met you. He was right. You are too ugly to be part of my family." Blake chirped in.

"Our lives would be so much better without you! Why can't you understand that you're not wanted here. Or anywhere near us at all." Reece added.

I began to cry. I have no idea what I did wrong. Maybe I said something the other night when I was drunk that could possibly make them hate me this much. I expected some sort of backlash from Reece but not my brother and my best friend. I felt my heart shatter into a million pieces with every little word of hurt that left their mouths.

"It's probably the best if you move back home with Mam. Well I mean my Mam. Or maybe get your own place. Be alone like you deserve. Bitch." Blake said.

I took a step back as Blake stepped towards me, the expression on his face as cold as his words.

"Clingy!" George shouted.

"Annoying!" Reece stated, advancing forward to join B.

I ran up the stairs. Tears streaming like rivers down my burning red cheeks. I was chocking them back as much as possible so I could see. I spun around on my feet to face them. With every word they spoke, I took a step back as they got closer.

"Nobody wants you!"

"Nobody needs you!"

"Nobody cares about you!"

My feet were right at the edge of the stairs. I watched in horror as George took a couple of steps closer, his face inches off mine. He looked me dead in the eyes, his face softened. His hand rose to my face he wiped away my tears, cupping my cheeks gently. He rested his forehead against mine as he had done so many times before. I felt my body suddenly relax at his touch. George sighed, laughing slightly, before whispering quietly.

"Nobody even loves you."

My eyes opened and I frowned at George before I felt something grab me and shove me shoulders. I fell backwards and tried to keep my balance as I looked up helplessly at the three cold hearted humans. I squeezed my eyes as tight as I could waiting to hit the hard floor.

I just kept falling.

Down.

Down.

Down.

Further.

And further.

"DEANNA!"

                Sitting up quickly, I tried to calm my breathing. Sweat covered my body as I shook away the terrible thoughts I had just experienced. My face was drenched in tears. I panted rapidly trying to get oxygen around my body. Eyes still clenched shut. Suddenly, I felt a huge weight drop next to my legs. "Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey! Deanna calm down! Breathe! You'll be ok I'm here!" Slowly, I peeled my eyes open. I felt him touch my leg reassuringly. I didn't even care I just couldn't feel alone anymore. "What happened! Tell me about it please it'll make you feel better!"  I smiled at how ironic the situation was. "I don't want to live with you guys anymore! I want to move home... Reece!"