Start Over Again

X

            The next thing I knew, Blake, George and I were standing around the speaker next to the tv singing to Twist and Shout by The Beatles. We were all completely wasted at this point so I didn't particularly care what I sounded like or looked like because I was having an amazing time with my brother and our best friend. Everyone turned to watch us, clapping along to the music. I only really sang when I was like this, mostly because nobody would remember it in the morning, or when I'm alone like in the shower or my room. I'm not saying that I am talented because I'm far from it but I enjoy it probably the same amount as Blake. Once the song had finished, we all took a sarcastic bow as the remaining watchers applauded us. Gulping the rest of my drink down, I went over to the corner of the room and sat on the sofa. I finally hit a brick wall. I lay my head back against the cushions and slowly felt my eyelids become heavy. A weight shifted next to me. "Been a long day huh? I'm tired too! I just want everyone to go home so I can go to bed." Reece said, taking a sip from his bottle. I turned my head to the side so I could see him better. 

             "I feel like I haven't seen you in ages Deanna. You know I only pick on you as a joke don't you? I don't mean to be nasty I just come across it sometimes." He added, sitting cross legged in front of me. I felt myself tear up as my thoughts cast back once again, each bad memory resurfacing to haunt me once again. A hand raised up to my cheek and wiped them away. "I guess I just get jealous of how close you are with the others and wish that we could be like that as well." I felt my blood boil. How could he say this after everything. "Maybe if you hadn't been so much of a dick when we first met we could be like that but no, you put this on yourself Bibby." His face dropped and he looked as emotional as I did. I didn't mean to snap at him. 

                 "Look D! You don't know the full story behind that day. Oh god, I just wish I'd told you about it sooner." Them bright blue eyes looked dull and glazed over. "Blake had been bragging about how amazing you were to us for weeks over text. He'd even send us photos of you to try and express it to us even more. I thought you were so beautiful. The most beautiful girl I'd seen. When Blake said you were shy and didn't want to speak to me and George yet I was gutted. Just as I was about to leave you walked down the stairs. The look of shock across your face proved you didn't expect me to still be there. I did know what to do and I thought making a joke would clear the tension but it just ruined everything for us. I didn't mean to hurt you Deanna. everything you went through, it was all my fault." Reece too started to cry, I can't believe what I have just heard. 

               "Don't blame yourself for something I did. Sure you're the one who triggered it but I was the one who worked to hard to better myself. I'm the one that put myself in hospital you didn't do it." I cupped his face and wiped his tears away. I threw him a light smile. He didn't deserve to feel like this. "Just know that I'm sorry. I really am." It was so weird, everyone around us was completely oblivious to what was going on. Management had left now and it was just me, nhc and The Vamps. Everyone had calmed down now and were either in the kitchen or passed out somewhere. I just pulled him into a bear hug. It took him a quick second to realise what I was doing until he responded and hugged me back. We just sat there, enjoying each others presence.  

"Can we just start over again?"

and then it just happened...

________________________________________________________________________________

IM SO SORRY FOR HOW SHORT THIS IS BUT DONT KILL ME! I HAVE SEVERE PCD RIGHT NOW AND  I MISS THE BOYS SO MUCH ITS CRAZY. BLAKE AND GEORGE HAVE GIVEN ME THEIR COLD BUT ITS OK IM TOUGH AS ANYTHING. HOPE YOU ENJOYED XXX