Fell For My Bestfriend

chapter 12

Emily's POV

After my shift ended I went back home. I was so perplexed... My whole mind was just so clouded that I couldn't think straight.... I sat down on the chair with my head in my hands... The sudden banging on my door bought me out of my daze... I slowly dragged my tired body up to the door and opened it... But the moment I did that I felt someone pushing me inside.. I looked up and saw a very angry looking Troy staring back at me... How the hell did he know where I lived?? What the fuck??
"Hey what the fuck are you doing?? You're not supposed to barge into someone's house without their consent..." I said angrily...
"What the fuck is wrong with you... ?? Stop ignoring me and listen to me... I tried explaining stuff to you until your boyfriend decided to interrupt..." He said
"You don't have to give me any explanation cause I dont want one..." I spat at him
"No you will listen..." He said
"Do I have any obligations??" I asked him
He didn't say anything just looked at me... Then looked away for a second and then back at me.. he seemed to calm down.. his shoulders relaxed a bit... He was looking at his feet... Then grabbed my shoulders and looked up... His eyes were brimming with tears... His face showed how hurt and miserable he was ...
"Please just give me a chance to justify myself... Em please... All I need is a chance.." he said... And my heart broke seeing him like this... No matter how much he has hurt me but I couldn't afford to do the same... I am sure their is a reasonable justification behind his behaviors... And probably I would hear it...
"Troy you should leave... I don't want anything to do with you... That's the door and out you go... I have some important stuff to do... So please leave... And I don't want to repeat myself..." I said moving his hands from my shoulders and trying to push him out the door... Maybe I would listen to him but just not today...
"Em please... Please..." He said and by this time tears were rolling down his cheeks...
"Leave... NOW.." I yelled at him... He looked at me for sometime... Eyes begging me to give him a chance... His features screaming at me to listen to him... But he didn't say anything... He wiped his eyes... Gave me a weak smile turned around and left without another word... His silence left me broken... His weak smile left me shattered and his desperate eyes wanting me to give him a chance just tore my heart into millions of pieces... I wanted to cry, I wanted to run after him and give him a big hug and listen to everything.. but I didn't... I didn't do it cause I wanted him to feel how broken I was when I realized that I had completely disappeared from his life... Maybe I was wrong, maybe I was right but right now I didn't have the strength to contemplate on that.... There were just so many questions but no answers were available... Maybe his explanation would answer my questions but then again what if it didn't... And above all I was scared that what if I get close to him and he leaves me again... Cause if something like that happens... This time I will not be able to mend myself... It will be too much for me... And I might just end up doing something myself... I wasn't prepared to give my heart another blow...