My cat hybrids (boy x boy) why don't we

Should I trust?

Jacks (p.o.v) I know shocking right
I know I ruined the moment and I feel bad but I don't want them to get attached. I have gotten attached before to an owner before I knew them when I was younger. And lest just say after that trusting people isn't the easiest for me. I know I already told them what I did for Zach and Daniel but I've bent regretting it. Don't get me wrong I think there attractive as hell (don't we all) but I can't open up not again. I had quietly got out of my trap between Zach and Daniel and went downstairs. I k so they said we were aloud around the house but we're we aloud outside when they weren't home?. Oh f*ck (wow Jack language this a kids book oooor is it sorry Harry Styles joke I had too) it I said to my self. I walked outside by the pool and transformed into my cat. Something I never told Zach or Daniel is that I'm not the happiest with be half cat. After all if I weren't half cat I wouldn't have been owned in the first place. Why is this so hard to trust them. They really seem nice. Ugh I hate this. I hate being half cat I hate being owned. The only thing keeping me here is Zach and Daniel. They are finally really happy and I can't be the one to take that away from them. Why is life so difficult. Before I knew it I fell asleep outside right by the edge of the pool.

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So another question for ya. I know I added Logan into this but I'm not feeling it. I'm not mad at him for what he did but you know just not feeling it. So if you guys want me to keep him in the book I will. If not then I'll figure a way out we're he leaves. But please no hate it's not because I don't like him. Also sorry if this is crappy. I was told today after I got back from school that my cat had been put down and I'm upset about it. But I wanted to get a chapter out for you guys. So ya please tell me your opinion. Have a good night/day were ever you are in this world.bye.
-H