Always be a FanGirl

IDOLS

To all the ‎ℐdols that ℐ've loved until today..

The first time I saw you wasn't in the mall,
Not in the park, school or even at a ball.
I saw you in a funky music video,
As I dance to beat of it's catchy audio.

I saw you as a cool looking man.
Being stiff and noble as you can.
You were as close to perfection,
Like you were made for that definition

I stalked you on the internet,
But your information was too hard to get
So I watched your videos instead
And I can't get you off of my head

It turns out you laugh like a fool,
You weren't all that really cool
You have flaws and I know that
You aren't perfect and yes I accept that

I love the things that remind me of you
I couldn't get enough of your perfect view
I might die single and that's what they fear
But I say, "I have a boyfriend. He's just not here."

I saved millions of photos of you,
My friends say it's many but for me it's too few
It's your language that I wanted to learn
Everything about you is totally my concern,

I feel butterflies whenever I see your face,
When you cry, I feel sad like a breaking vase
I look at you with so much appreciation,
I love to daydream and reveal my emotion

I want us to be together forever,
Build a family, moreover
I want to hold and squeeze you tight
I really want to but it's just not right

But when reality slaps me real hard,
As I dreamingly look at your photo card
Up in the sky you're like a star,
I can't reach you, you're too far

The world is screaming that we can't be together
That it's impossible to be your lover
Because you will always be the one that continues to shine
And I knew that you will never ever be mine

We are miles apart,
But I still hold you dear inside my heart
Because the sad truth is that you are my man,
But the sadder truth is that I am just your fan.

ㅡ Aeℓa R.

©Aela Raine

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