Sweet daddy meets mlg dinosaur- phan

Losing my life

Phils POV
I look around us no one to be seen. I look dan straight in the eyes. His eyes full of fear and sadness , his beautiful body broken up and me just holding him . What could I do he was in such a mess. It was like 9 pm by now and my sister had gone home. I told her I would meet her home . When I saw dan .

I Wanted to talk to him after the show and congratulate him for doing so well. But I couldn't find him someone had said he'd already left. So I decided to have a looks round to see if he was still on turf. I managed to find him along with some others. Eugh they were so pathetic. I could smell their cheap perfume and aftershave from a mile away. I was so mad at what they did to Dan. They deserved it back. So I hit them apart from Sarah. I just spat my words out to her. And told her everything how she just made me love her for the money and gifts. It hurt to lie because I wasn't really straight... I used her as well, as a cover-up. And yet again I was covering everything up with more lies. Like my mum drags me to hell every Sunday. And brings me home and lectures me about how I should behave and how I should love and act. But she doesn't care about my happiness! She thinks I'm going to grow up and be a footballer or a rich man working for Apple. Instead, I want to be a weatherman or get an English degree and teach people what it's really like to live and make them happy and let them be themselves.

But yet again I was torn between this boy I loved and my mother's words. The words she shoved down my throat every Sunday and they burnt me. They burnt every part of my body, it felt like my body was on fire, from the words she spat at me. "Never date a man, you will be come a footballer, you have the right physique." That's not what I wanted tho! Why didn't she realise?

I pick myself up dan help dan up too. Realising his sobs have stopped "let me -shiz- walk you home" Dan said. I smile at him and that's enough to let him know he can. He smiles back our arms touching as we walk in the cool breeze. Every time our arms touch my hairs stand on end. I shouldn't be feeling this but I am. I try to forget it but I can't. The feeling is too strong. I want to just leap into his arms and never let go. I want to kiss his little face and all of his cuts better . I could tell my mum I just walked into a lamppost but she won't believe me and have to cover me in her sticky greasy foundation as she doesn't want her precious boy looking a mess she overreacts a lot!

We're getting closer to my house, an uneasy feeling was coming over me I felt nauseous again. Just like the first time we walked back to him, although this time I wasn't high or drunk. I was bruised and batted and falling in love. With the silent boy next to me.

He looks at me just as we reach my house . The temptation to kiss him is unbelievable but we're right outside my house . He looks at me again , and leans in towards me . I felt so bad having to push him away , the look on his face killed me . His eyes which speak every word of his droop and fill with sadness as he feels like he's been rejected . "dan . I'm sorry , it's not that I don't like you , because I do , it's because of my mother if she sees , I'm dead . Please when the time is right. ." I felt so guilty . I grab his hand unconsciously and intertwine out fingers, But after realising our fingers were intertwined I almost immediately pulled them apart, I loved him with every muscle. But it would take more than that to fight back my mum . I realised the mistake I've done . I fell in love with a beautiful boy the complete opposite to me . "It's okay Phil, - spork- one day everything will be alright" "thank you dan for everything". I mouthed before turning around to face my house . I felt a large lump in my throat as I swallow harshly . Looking at the window, my mother glaring angrily at me with hatred and disgust
in her eyes. As I walk towards the house , guilty of everything . I'm sorry dan

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Thankyou for still reading ! This just got 8ntresting ~ peppa